With This Loss Of Weight

Relations,

Let it be known then, that I am opening up about a few things as it pertains to this loss of weight I have had the fortune of shedding from this Humans skeleton and frame. Note now please that I am going to speak truths. If you may have issues with truth's please, be calm and move along. I will continue to share the experiences of a Man who at fifty two years of age and disabled by stupid diseases, has decided to lose weight and exercise for a better state of health and being. If I have to be one who is disabled, then I'm going to be a fit representative of myself and this process. The process of realizing that there is no getting better with the Meniere's Disease and the processes of knowing that I 'can do' have an affect on some of the other health issues I have.

I have learned very well what Sir Dude, my therapist, meant when he recommended I watch my ego. Yes, I know damned well what he meant. Sir Dude, knows all of my his-story's, from A all the way through to Z. He is familiar with everything and knows me better than anybody else on Mother Earth. And no, I'm not going to apologize. He's my therapist. Folks in my Circle are not. So, Sir Dude I thank you for throwing that out at me all of those months ago. Sage, it has been some good damned advice.

NOTE: It is 1600 here and now, and Sir Dude, just called me to confirm Wednesday's visit! YES!
That is some crazy synchronicity right there! My God.

I share Relations, I have had body memories and have had smell memories. I have also had some pretty heavy memories knock me pretty hard. Yes, there's something going on within and I'm not prepared to stop its course right now. It feels good to lose weight and it sure is awesome to lose the amount of inches I have lost from this waist of mine. There has been the added benefit of inches gained elsewhere such as my chest and arms. I continue to use my Physical Therapy exercises and have introduced other forms of exercises. I have made another attempt to include my tricycle as part of the regimen, but my balance is not yet ready. So I walk when the notion hits me. I continue to use light weights and use my Kettle Bar weight and have increased the amount of curls I do on a daily basis. I have learned that something has to be eaten in the morning to break fast - this has actually helped me with the loss of weight. I am eating well while minding the intake of what it is I put in my mouth.

I am amazed at the veins that are bulging from various parts and pieces of my body. Not even when I was in the Army did I have such biceps. My fore arm is enjoying plentiful veins which should make laboratory work much easier for the Lab Techs. I enjoy watching these veins as I exercise and or work that particular part of my body. My Great Spirit, I didn't know! This in and of itself has been fantastic motivation for me to continue to not only lose weight, but to continue exercise as well.

These clothes, undergarments and even my shoes fit differently. The time will come soon when I'll have no choice but to purchase replacements. I am eager to get a few pair of neat under garments. Something colourful - whimsical kind of stuff I hope. And something that will help me be more comfortable with the undercarriage parts. It is a mystery how there is a certain part of my anatomy that falls asleep and gets all tingly because of the way I might sit. Like the foot when it falls asleep. Oh yes, it is also quite unpleasant to sit on a couple of certain things down there too. Look, I know that sure is alot of informtion, but I didn't have that problem a few months ago. And no, I don't need to see the Man Doctor. I'm cool with this, just need to purchase somethings that fit.

 I mentioned memories earlier, Relations, I have always associated weight loss with Eating Disorders. I have had them, Anorexia and Bulimia. My teeth remind me of the Bulimia. The nausea and vomiting that I have daily due to the Meniere's Disease reminds me of the Bulimia. I bring up teeth because I have lost so many to decay and the remaining teeth suffer decay from the acid that seems to always be right there at my throat and mouth. Every damned time I vomit, I think of Bulimia. It's as if I'm living it again - just on a different page and or space in time. The vomiting comes too naturally. I no longer have to put my finger in my mouth. I simply let Meniere's Nausea do it. And no, I do not like what is going on with this particular symptom of Menere's, but it happens. Not daily, but it sure as hell happens. I feel confidant in saying this has had not a thing to do with my loss of weight. Absolutely none. I have worked hard to become a healthier person. My Body, is the Business I must invest in...

...I am not going to put my health or self in danger with the Bulimia. Seen.