Well, Relations,
This is looking as if I am having issues this morning. Actually, this is more like another night of the sound's and noise's and these wee hours of the morning have me twisted up inside really something tough like. In less than four hours I will have been awake another twenty four hours. I just went through this earlier this week when I hit forty hours of being awake. I was so looking forward to an uneventful remainder of this week. It appears the Meniere's has something different in mind. I sure as heck know that it has something else in store for my ears, my throat and the top left and left side of my scalp and skull.
In my deaf left ear at this moment I am listening to a chain clanging against the side of a flag pole. Where ever this noise originates, it is relentless. The clanging and clanging as if our flag was flying Full Staff and blowing like mad in this Autumn Florida breeze. I have had the clacking sounds before but I believe this is the first for clanging. And yes, the distinction between the two is clear and are very obvious. Good-goodness. What more to say?
My right ear has had one heck of a day, night and early morning. This new day, 11 October 2012, is starting off with some really loud intrusive noises. Wait. My left ear is now picking up beeps. Random and sporadic. The quality of hearing in my right ear is very unsatisfactory. So poor that it was necessary to have the volume up loud on the television as we viewed "Modern Family" last night. Our comic relief indeed and this new season looks as if it is going to be even better than last. Damn, anyways, my Dear had to ask a couple of times if I would turn the volume down a bit or place the tube on mute. Too loud for her and not loud enough for him. Me. The noises in this ear have been of the Serengeti Preserve in Africa. Every damned night bug, insect, critter, and an occasional psssssssst. Don't know what that's about, but every once in a spell I'll listen to this psssssssst - as in a bicycle tire's escaping air. Please?
None of these going's on are normal. I have entirely forgotten what total silence sounds like. (Keep in mind that I am Single Side Deaf) It's as if I have always had these bleeping noises and sounds for Pete's sake! My God? And then to have these be so loud and unimaginably horrendous is something I would not wish on to any fellow Human Kind. Never. This is sick and I mean this in a sick-as-hell sense. This torture is inhumane and I guess now that I say those words, I agree this is a sick form of torture.
To have this knot in my throat and the nausea brewing still, is sick. The dizziness is gagging and inhospitable. The spiders are running and scurrying about between my scalp and my skull on the left side of same scalp and skull. My bobble head.
I want to fucking curse but I won't. Sometimes letting some of this shit out is beneficial to the one having the so called Audible Hallucinations or is the One known as He-Who-Is-An-Anomaly.
Thinking calming thoughts while cursing. That's it! Thinking calmly while cursing. Uncool.
P.S. By the way, we don't have a flag pole out side.
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