Meniere's, Today

After having sweat the day away, I am now down to belts of perspiration around my neck and chest. There were times I sweat so much I decided not to go outside or task inside. I haven't even curled yet today and now that I think of it, I'll make sure I squeeze in at least one hundred curls. I carried a towel to wipe my face and head from the sweat so bad. I went shirtless too.

I am unable to describe this to you in medical terms, so please do pardon me. Yet, I do describe and attempt to share as it is when I experience these symptom's of the Meniere's Disease. I communicate the symptoms as they happened or as I am experiencing them at any given moment. Which for me has been enlightening, because I am able to provide a glance at what one experiences with this dreadfully ugly and invisible disease.

Please Note: I have never nor will I ever be all inclusive with communications, meaning I do not and will not say or share anything that would indicate that all Folk's living with Meniere's Disease have the same symptoms, surgeries, and or issues I have had. When I speak of this Meniere's Disease that took over my life -  I talk only of the Meniere's as the disease has troubled me. The symptoms I have and experienced - the sounds and noises for example, are spoken from an I and I point of view. A personal stance, you see? I can not speak of other people's with Meniere's, though I hope that I may someday be able to speak for 'Folks with Meniere's', if ever placed in such a situation.

I had productive vomit early this afternoon. I have not since, but the nausea remains and dwells here in my throat. I have the belief that burping helps with my nausea, which at this moment is running a high six. As I would say same of the dizziness that has followed me all of today. This is a major factor in me keeping indoors. There has been to much poor coordination and the balance has been an issue. Bumping into things that have always been there. Like the chair moves out to trip me? Right. Briefly, the sounds have been hyper-active today. All of today. There for a while I had a Harley Davidson outside on the car port and with the rider reeving up the motor. Yes, I checked and no, no one was there, but I listened to it roar! I had no choice. For sure?

I hope the morrow be a brighter day. Inside me and my Spirit's, inside my Lodge and out of doors. I want to bust out of this skin I live in sometimes and am reminded time and time again,  that I have unfinished business here on Mother Earth...

...there is so much life to live and I can't wait to live with it! Remember this, my Relations I am here on borrowed time as it is. Life is too short! Today was one hell of a gloomy day, with the rain, clouds, wind and the sound of no birds in the garden. Today, would've been as damned good as any other day to die.

Today was also one damned good day to be alive too! Thank You, Great Spirit!