It was sometime Thursday afternoon or early evening when the Meniere's Attacked happened and stomped on me quite well. I was actually laying down on my bed in my safe place at the time when this vertigo attack struck. There's this symptom that has happened only on a rare occurrence and is the one that I strongly believe is provoked by my eye movement. I had been laying down and doing acupressure on my neck, upper spine and scalp. Awesome! Shortly after I completed what I thought was a fair amount of time on these very sharp pointed pricks. I lifted my head to remove this pillow with acupressure - I for what ever reason looked up and at the ceiling fan. When I did, it was as if the fan had stopped for a micro-second. For me in was mind warping and I feel certain this is what threw me full speed ahead into an attack that has had consequence's since Thursday's sometime.
Motion, has in fact perpetuated Meniere's attacks or the Vertigo attacks in the past. In my skin and in this brain and ear holes it's always, the same - same. It becomes a part or way of life.
Honestly. Yes.
Since Thursday, of last week 18 October, I have slept approximately sixty five hours and I think I may be taking it easy on the numbers piece right there. It was late morning, this morn when I awoke and decided to remove myself from my bed and safe place to begin the 'dealing processes'...
...it is now time that I battle the sleep and slumber. God, yes at one time this was my biggest complaint. The sleep does me well I believe but it also renders me helpless when sleeping while there is no one else near by. Yes, I grow scared when I have these simply horrifying attacks. Me and my sub-conscience know there is some sleep in store. There just isn't a disengage button for this business of Meniere's Disease. No. no secret key neither.
The sweating was very poor with a lot of sweating. At times it was best that I went without a shirt. Nausea was high, although non-productive. Dizziness has been too bad, and it has affected my sight which requires purpose while having and sending out this communique. The spiders and worms have been active. There have been a couple of times when I've slapped my scalp in the hopes that it would scatter the nerve endings. No.
I have been bombarded by the noises and sounds from this most recent vertigo and Meniere's attack. This one has placed a fine ass stomping upon me and my once again slimming body. My jaw bones hurt! How does that sound? The soles of my feet to the top of my shaved skull and scalp ache and hurt. Yes, I did the grooming myself. Heck, with the amount of hair I have remaining, it is my business Ma'am, to feed, enrich, love and take darling care of all this. Nothing fake or artificial, just good medicine for the body by the aloe or coconut. Coffee bean too.
Right. And then, I share with you my Right Good Guests that the meniere's and vertigo attacks are dreadful and exhausting. The pains are not created in the mind, the mind is picking up the pain sensors from those areas.
These very long periods of sleep compel me into a deep state of Dream World. A deep state of awareness of being alive and well in another dimension. Sometimes, like this most current attack, Friday, for example, I slept practically twenty four hours - but it had been interrupted. I and my being had to disengage in a harsh and difficult manner. I and all myself were turned off. My body parts play well together. Dreams so deep I am speaking and carrying on conversations with Relations, while understanding and comprehending...
...I stopped analyzing years ago.
There has been too much popping going on in my right ear hole to the brain. Both ears have popped, but the right has popped many times more over than the left Deaf ear hole to the brain. And yes, that part remains within my skull. I just can't listen to real stuff because I am OOS, Out Of Sound, on the left side. Also known as Single Side Deaf. Being this way is an oddity,..
...it is an anomaly that I am able to listen to noise and sound in my left ear.
...solidifies that I have always been an oddity. En'it?
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