Hi

Hi Relations,

It is 1331 and i have been awake for roughly fifteen minutes. Was finally able to fall into a deep sleep at 1000 this morn. I let go and let my mind and body dictate what it was planned for me to do today. Top on the list was sleep I reckon. Friends, I had to turn it a loose. I can't control this Meniere's rubbish. Seems to me that letting go is something I do and have done, but there's something odd about these episodes of non-sleep. There is something in my Core that whispers messages into my left Deaf ear. I am wishing to return to sleep, but plan to combat this desire until later this evening when I plan to begin an all out attack against the non-sleep. Sadly, this very plan includes yet another damned pill that I have in my medicinal bait box...

...yes, another stunning Puny Purplish Pill that has the stuff in it that should assist me with these battles of the wicked-wide-awake-non-sleep shit. My mind and body have become exhausted and am thinking some of these painful neurological and spinal issues along with a pail of pitiful health related dilemma's are all related to the lack of rest and sleep. As much as it is loathed, I will introduce this routine tonight and plan to continue until I have been righted and back on an established sleep routine.

If this should fail then I know there's something going on that will require the aid of physicians. These doctors are under my employ and I suspect that these six episodes I've experienced are not normal. These symptoms of the Meniere's are as wide as any spectrum I have ever encountered...

...no, and I say, there's not too damned much about me that is normal. But then there's very few Folks out there I know who are "normal". What is normal? I don't know. I thought I knew. Sounds like one of those normal is as normal does type of Forest Gump sort of things.

As I sit here tip tapping, I attempt to drown out these noises and sounds between my ears with the soothing sounds of Earth, Wind and Fire's, "Devotion". Maurice and dudes try to help, but these obnoxious ass loud ass beeps, swamp creatures and that helicopter zooming over head - back and forth over the Preserve are slowly working all of my damned nerves...

...my very last damned nerve was used up just a few days past. It was necessary I go to Macy's and purchase a new package of them. Nerves by the box full. Found them in the Shoe Department. Folks just don't know and I know that you know I know Folks don't know.

Bye.