Read And Hear

Relations,

I have had an exceptionally bad past three nights. The sounds and noises between my ears are and have been outrageously loud. Day and Night! So, bad were these symptom's last night I considered calling He-Who-Touched-My-Brain. The sounds of aeroplanes in my back yard. Large aeroplanes. I have listened to amplified noises and sounds of the rain forest. I listen to the grunt of alligator by my window in search of his mate. Look, I don't know what he could've done and I sure as hell do not know what I might have done differently...

...other than eat the Pretty in Pink Pills that are prescribed for me. Seen.

It's hard to have these noises and sounds going on while I try to have conversation with Kinfolk and or Kindred. I have a difficult time as it is with communicating with others. I continue to cup my ear and ask for repeats, please. Was placed in a position this week end when it was necessary to remind one I have issues hearing. So please do not get upset with me when I must ask for a repeat. I swear to my penis that if my family would provide me more support in this area, I suspect that I may be able to have growth and progress with letting go of the rubbish that accompanies the Meniere's Disease.

The dizziness has made for hazardous ways of life for me, but then, it seems as if I live in some form or state of dizziness daily any way. I mean, this is unbearable at times. I do not want to live life stumbling, bumbling and fumbling about. There are times I embarrass myself because I am afraid Folks may think me a drunkard. With a bleeding four legged cane too. Speaking of which, I so want to lose this hideous piece of equipment. I am too young to be dependant on such an item. I continue to work on my balance with the Physical Therapy exercises, but when the day's are dangerously dizzy, this is no matter. Read?

There must be something that He-Who-Touched-My-Brain and I can do about these damned sounds and noises and the constant state of dizziness. Please, Great Spirit, let this be so.

This would be torture under The Geneva Convention! Why is it then I must continue to live under these conditions? I don't know?

I really and truly do not know. Hear?