Relations,
Greetings and welcome to the 700th Post on this blog, Meniere's Disease, Mario's Path.
I think I'll conduct a State of The Union of My Selves's while here. Somewhat of a self inventory. True? True.
I have eaten my PM medicines and hope that I'll be set adrift on a dreaming bliss within the next hour or so. An anti-depressant, an anti-anxiety and a superb medication for the neurological nerve pain, spiders and worms. The medication is called Gabapentin 800 MG, which is a substitute for Neurontin. The nerve pains, spiders and worms are never 100% gone, but this medication aids with some relief of these symptoms. This is Meniere's Disease related so I'll segue straight ahead into what's going on tonight in the meniere's world as I know it...
...the beeping of a rubbish truck reversing has been beeping off and on most of my awake time today. This coming from my right good bad ear. It is this same ear that wanted to sleep in this morning and took it's time to listen up. And, I do ask you to please pardon that pun. I am afraid I have grown complacent with this symptom that began just a few weeks ago. He-Who-Touched-My-Brain has knowledge of this. He says this is a part of losing the hearing. I don't know if I've ever shared this or not, I am knowing I have never said this out loud, but I am afraid of the loss of hearing in my right ear. Being Deaf in my Left is damned complicated for me. I have conducted experiments with my right ear and know to my bones that being Deaf is going to be tough.
There has been the sounds of The Everglades, way out in the swamp where there is no light but that of the Moon if one has planned their night walk abouts correctly. This is working my nerves as it has been non-stop since 1800.
I can also hear the 18 Wheelers hitting the highways in the back of my brain. Somewhere off in the distance like...
...far away yet close enough for me to hear the roar of the engine and the whine of those wheels.
These noises and sounds are keeping me up for now. I wait.
I did not throw up today. Which is a fine thing when nausea has ridden my neck and upper chest since I woke late this morning. I believe that when Brenda woke me and told me she had spoken with our daughter and that her surgery went good - my Daddy heart, I remember felt like a balloon with the air escaping from it. Such a relief that I slept through my alarms. No, I didn't hear them. Thank you Great One, for blessing my Honorable Daughter. By the way, that's the way it is sometimes with the hearing of the alarm on the digital clock. Sometimes I hear and sometimes I don't.
The dizziness tagged along something bad since last evening. Last night the dizziness was so bad I was fearful of fainting. The dizziness has been with me since - up to and including right at this moment. The walls in my lodge became like bumper covers in a bowling alley. As I walked with my cane, I was able to lightly glance along the walls when necessary.
All out door activity was paused today and even with that and an air conditioner turned down to 78 could not keep me from perspiring or sweating. It has been a two bandanna and one sweat cloth type of day. It's disgusting to me to be sitting here in one of my safe places and perspire as I do. I try my best to be at ease and remember to breathe...
...sometimes it just doesn't matter what I do when it comes to this Meniere's Disease.
There is news to share. I have applied for aid in receiving punch passes for transportation to my doctor and therapy appointments. I followed up with the company today and re-faxed all information for opening supervisor. I was provided a Client ID number and the young lady I spoke with provided policy and procedures. I so hope and pray this really happens. Good-goodness, it would be such a huge benefit. A Blessing. Based on our conversation earlier, this young lady with a smiling name gave me reason for optimism. Relations, I petition, please keep me in mind and send good and positive energy this way. In the morrow, post 1300 I'll find out the decision of the powers that be in place. When I do, I'll send out a communique with a yes or no.
Was able to communicate and resolve book keeping issues with She-Who-Used-To-Intimidate-Me. My neck and upper spine whisper to me that a visit will soon be necessary.
I put myself in the position to have to make amends yesterday. My young friend understood and was forgiving of me for lieing about the reason not to step out with he and another friend of ours. It wasn't that I did not wish to visit with them, you see, it was about the money. How shameful and embarrassing. It was one heck of an awesome lesson learned though. Fortunate yes, I am.
The perspiration wraps about my neck like a Pearl Choker and I just felt the baby worms move.
Ciao!
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