Thought I Would Faint

Note: This was written on 17 February 2011.

Around 11:00 in the morning, I was zapped by a vertigo attack that took my breathe away. No, really. Sent me into the need for my emergency inhaler. Puffed like I had to! The spinning was inhumane, the dizziness had me thinking I would faint. Disgusting sweats and dizziness that required bed and roughly one hour to sub-side then a few hours sleep...sleep so deep I know I went into REM. When I did awake, it was long enough to do this and or that...sweated like a horse, nausea and dizziness. Back to bed...

Had called my Sir Dude, a bit before then. Wanted to speak with my therapist for a mighty brief moment or two. Don't ask please. Seems as if I've taken a downward trend over the past few days. It was also necessary to tend to legal matters via telephone.

Note: Found out Wednesday, my para-legal "exited stage left" and have felt deeply abandoned by this unpleasent and sudden departure. Also, have felt cut off from "Him-Who-Knows-The-Law"...I'm ignorant, you all.

This past Sunday I had a vertigo attack late in the afternoon. Preceding symptoms were loud and unusual sounds...roaring, pinging, beeping. Slept remainder of Sunday and most Monday. Brenda, actually "called this one".... Thinking she was witnessing the going's-on as well as picking up on the sypmtoms on the out side of mind and or brain. Cool! My hound notices changes as well.

Got up for therapy on the Wednesday, came home and tried to push the envelope by keeping myself awake as long as possible. And did. By the time I went to bed I was so totaly exhausted. My entire body ached and pained.

When I did meet Sir Dude, he pulled a magic number out of his hat and reported to me my depression was fair...FAIR?! The complexion of my skin is fair honey. Um, but maybe at that precise moment - as I sat in one of my safe places, I felt fairly well...but not before I arrived...not later in the evening...not late last night. Not this morning when I called to speak with him. Never did call me back. We'll connect tomarrow. No doubt. Have shed more tears than I have in a couple of weeks.

It's 1850. Think I'll lay down and sleep a spell...I am nauseated with gagging and dizzy. Got to go.