Abandoned Not Terminated

Kindred,

Good Morning.

I send out this communique this morning to report that I have been abandoned by one in my circle of the "Better Health Care Team". It was on Friday, 24 August 2012 that I received a letter informing me of such from this member that will - as always remain anonymous.

The last face to face with this once trusted individual was 01 May 2012. It was what I would've considered a pleasant gathering. It was during this, his face to my face, that I had followed up on my plans to continue to work with Sir Dude, as my therapist and to begin utilizing my primary physician for medications. I shared and had informed he, that I knew where he was located and that I would continue to see him on an "as needed basis". We laughed, talked face to face and shuck hands as I left.

On 02 May 2012, I blogged about this face to face and my plan. This plan that "we" - "he and I" had discussed previously. I have no regrets. I handled this relationship as one would handle any sort of business. I employed this one who betrayed me, he did not employ me. I was not forced to see him. He was not appointed to me. I had chosen and decided that he would be under my employ and to become a part of my Better Health Care Team. "For as long as I thought necessary". As far as I was concerned, there was not to be a termination of his services, but rather some time separating time and visits. Again, this once trusted individual was aware that if I needed his services, I knew where to get ahold of him and or when to reach out.

This person knows of my blog.  I reckon he didn't  recognize I kept notes of every appointment I have with anybody with letters following their names. Especially them under my employ. The all about the Meniere's Disease mixed with a heaping of Life and Things and All. All of which is my business. My body, my heart, my mind and Spirit's are my business. My wife, daughters, nephews and neices, sisters and brother are my business. I hold on tightly. I am simple. I do not have all of this education these Folks with letters after their name's. I employ. I listen, learn and follow the instructions. I have a passion for a better way of life and living.

The letter dated 21 August, 2012, reads, "This letter is to inform you that I believe it necessary to terminate our professional relationship due to your failure to maintain appointments as directed". With the exception of mt last schedukled visit which was scheduled on that 21 August 2012. I missed this "one" due to post Meniere's Attack symptoms, sleep and issues and it was day before my daughters departure to the Middle East. If and when any other occurrence came up that I missed an appointment, I was either in hospital with pneumonia or Meniere's Disease related issues. There may have been issues with making an appointment once or twice due to transport related issues, but that had been cured by a change in date and transport. OR a SESSION-By-TELEPHONE. I kept my appointments with this person. These gatherings were important and urgent to me. I trusted this person and considered him a member of my Team.

"Terminate", my foot - you have abandoned a patient.

Besides the inaccurate record keeping pertaining to my "attendance", this person made another error with the placing of a diagnosis upon me and my name. Never EVER, did he provide me a diagnosis. This Two-Faced-One, could have placed anything on anything at anytime. Never once was I provided a diagnosis. I went to see him out of trust - an almost blind trust. Now, I doubt. Now I don't.

He states, "I have been serving as your psychiatrist since February 8, 2010 and had been treating you (as it is spelled) Major Depression Disorder, Recurrent, Moderate with a program management Paxil and Risperdal, most recently". Unfortunately, there is another inaccurate/incorrect notation here, as I have not been prescribed the medication Risperdal. I have record of every prescription written by this person dating back to 11 September 2011. My pharmacy beyond that. If it was ever ordered - it was WE who decided to discontinue.

The letter goes on to provide me with unnecessary mumble-jumble psycho/emo verbiage.

I speculate this person did not realize the high esteem, respect, trust or appreciation I had for him.

If she felt it necessary to one up me by "terminating" our relationship rather than what we spoke about - my simply yearning to place time and distance between my evolving recovery, progress and process and my psychiatrist. It's her conscience - not mine. Now, I think maybe this is a good thing in itself. I worked hard for this...

...and yes, my dearest Kin, I do believe that is another error on his behalf. This elementary adolescent termination bull shit that he provided me is so childish. I mean, literally elementary.

Be side's, all of the above, her extra-ordinarily expensive 10 Minute sessions were becoming burdensome. Very.

I speculate there is a bit of injustice with these quoted typed word's right there. Them written by the professional. This Mixed Breed right here has become another statistic. Another injustice perpetuated by a White One against I and myself. Another abandonment.

I permitted myself to cry and be angry and to worry even over this damned drama brought on by the once trusted one. I had thought about calling the office and to speak and call a "time out", but then I thought again. Doctor is off on holidays. Which is good because now I think it best.

Now I see what type of person was under my employ. Now I see. Seen.

Please Note: The professional is Ineligible for re-hire.

Kindly,
Go Fuck Off

P.S. It's just that I've never gotten over those abandonment issues. Damn it, you did not terminate a fucking patient - you abandoned your patient!