Thought I would lay down to sleep, but I laid down to have my mind flooded with memories and the sounds and noises in my ears. Remembering certain songs I sure as hell listened to with both ears and those with one. For me, it's sad to say, I have forgotten what it hears like to listen with both ears...
...there's way too many good times and songs and concerts to remember with both ears. No, it's not the same with my implant on and activated at a concert. I know because I have tried it. There was one time when somehow and or someway, when Brenda and I went to see George Michael, a couple years ago it was right on the money! I don't think I even took the processor off. Oh my God, and to have been with-in a few feet of one of my Life Long favorites, it was a dream come true. It really was just like he was performing for Brenda and I alone. If he had wanted tea or a cock-tail or two we would've had him over, but he really did have to go after the show...
...let me stop it! All this drama and scandal up in here!
I remember listening to George Straight with both and one. Reba was with One Ear. Listened to my Sweet Tanya Tucker, with both once and One-sided deaf once at the Strawberry Festival. Sure as shit and had all of these "older folk" look at me with their odd eye balls looking because I had a computer attached to the side of my skull. Hell, I really truly believe Tanya, was making eye's with mine damned near the whole show. She sure did make me feel special. Yes, we were that close, and yes, I love Tanya Tucker, and Yes, she kept looking at me trying to remember, "where in the hell do I remember this S.O.B. from"?. Or so I would like to think, because the last her eye's met mine we were both 12 years old and we met over at George Jones and Tammy's house. God, know's I remember.
I have seen and listened to Fleetwood Mac, Stevie Nicks and Lidsay in show so many times I have forgotten how many.......all before I lost my Left Deaf Ear. Listened to and enjoyed Donna Summers with both. Grace Jones too!
John "Cougar" Mellancamp, Lover Boy. Michael Jackson with The Jackson's. Bob James. Tim McGraw. Faith Hill. Kenny Cheney, all were in show while I had both ears...
...Alan Jackson was with One. George Straight was once with both. Reba and Lee Ann Womack, Brian Miller, all with One Ear. All too many to remember!
The Point? I think some of us who have lost hearing and or are losing hearing, there comes a point that is refered to as prior to and post of. It's a Deaf thang, you wouldn't understand.
There is AN IMPORTANT MESSAGE, I wish to SHARE with one and all. That is, when One person in the family has a hearing problem, the whole family has a hearing problem. I have magazines here with articles from every walk of life, there is information on equipment that appears to cost the same as used trucks or jeeps, and if folks, worked as a team, much could be accomplished. There are too many folks not listening to me. You see? When someone tells me "you don't hear" or "you don't listen", I already know that. I'm the one that can not drive to and from. So I wonder and think to myself, who is this that can't listen? There are many pieces of equipment that I would make my life a safer place to be and my home a safer place to live...
...it's a mighty big damned shame when money becomes an issue and an even bigger shame when Folks in the Circle, forget that I really am Single Sided Deaf and Hard of Hearing. I've seen it in their eye's, you see?
Maybe it should not puzzle me as much as it does. But, it does.
Have I been forfeited?
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