When in the company of the one who attempted to seduce/molest me I get this energy that builds up to a place I don't like to go anymore. His energies are negative and leech off the energies of others, off of mine...
...I feel filthy and dirty and disgustingly ugly when he's around...
...and want to let myself grow angry and go to the place where I want to bleed some of this out. I yearn for the punishment I wish to inflict on to my own skin...
...this shell of my Being.
How does one tell oneself - you're permitting the continuation of "this" cycle? Eww, this son-of-a-bitch!
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