Something has happened...

I beg your pardon, I suspect something has either snapped or cracked somewhere up there...in one of those hemishere's of my brain.

I look in the mirror and I see a me who has been effected by this thing called meniere's...not only in physical way's, like the way my left eye has gone lazy on me and as my young nephew, Tong-Tong, recently informed me and a living room full, "Tio, your eye look's like it's about to fall out"...to how my left ear is now - way lower than my right ear. How sometime's at will, a tiny stream of drool slips from the left corner of my mouth...or sometime's spit. I clearly see the dent on the side of my skull where an implant live's and body fluid's drain.

I see a fellow who has aged prematurely...once vibrant and full of awesome energy. I weep as the day's have becomes month's and form these little dark pouches under my eye orb's...a dark colour forms as if my batteries scream for replacement. I see someone who has gained too much damned weight...not from over-eatting, but from under-living. From an overachieve'er to an under achieve'er in less than three years, have been a dreadful strain.

Folk's still like to grow bitter with my deafness and being hard of hearing...people in public, who do go out of their way to get a better look and see, folk's who stare. My kinfolk still laugh and find amusement...as if being entertained by a mime or a sad clown listening to the drip, drip, drip of a steady rain.

So I pray - I hope - I hope - I pray...

I don't know what more to do or say, so, peace to you and your's and please have a good day.