After three days at near sixty hours of sleep - this last night had no sleep and I feel discombobulated. I've been here before I know, but dang, it has been a spell. And really, I don't want to travel like this anymore. Too much baggage and shit.
Family comes soon for a visit I so look forward to. We will celebrate Christmas in January! Too much fun it sounds like, enit? Oh, I can't wait! my beautiful nieces and handsome nephews.
These sounds have been incredibly distracting and plain ass ugly through the night and this morning. The primary reason in the non-sleepage. Good Damn day! My body feels split and distracted and aches and is sore. I am exhausted but not sleepy. Flip a coin?
Meniere's has many ways to play with emotions and has become an expert playing with mine. I really sometimes wonder when I will lose my absolute damned mind. If it's not one damned symptom, it is the next one! Or another one! I really want to curse up a storm at the moment but figure other wise for now. And I tend to cuss too?!
I think I may attach another sound that I pick up from this damned donkey dick disease. That is the new terminology for Meniere's Disease. The DDDD, Damned Donkey Dick Disease. That is the way this makes me feel sometimes. Just like a giant DDD! Dig?
Tonight and this morning I have played different genres of music to aid with the distraction from the sounds and noises between my ear holes. Yeah, I know I am Deaf in the Left. So what? I still hear sounds and noises in there somewhere. Dammit! Music doesn't actually help, but the way I hear it really, is that I am listening to real sounds with music. Not the shit inside.
I wish Mom was alive so that we could talk and complain about one and an other's pains and issues. Lord, I sure am missing my Mom for real. Oh Ma, you just wouldn't believe this shit here! With no doubt, I know Mom would have poked tremendous fun with me and meniere's! Miss ya!
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