These three Meniere's Disease vertigo attacks that have/has occurred have/has set forth or have set back plans that were to have been discussed today, but will now be communicated in the morrow. I will be opening up the lines of connections for my Business Plan, my Better Health, Mind, Body and Wealth Team. I consider my latest Team Member, Miss. K., at the Vocational Rehabilitation the "Wealth Factor". Which is and who will be an important member in this Path I travel. There is One other who may potentially be a Wealth factor. This person has already been a Member of this Team and has been such for many years now. I love and respect him and his family, they are some sort of awesome Kin! Thinking of the addition of financial team mates makes so much sense. This pursuit is what motivates me to have good things to think about while I have been feeling this disgust inside and inside my skull. I've got to keep on moving...
...even if only in my dreams.
Today, I have had to deal with balance and the coordination issues with my steps in walking. These seem to become hyper surround sensational sensor-rama-3D affected. Which made simple turn arounds dangerous today. The dizziness has been troubling and problematic, affecting what I did and didn't do. Like yesterday and the day before and then...
...the sleeping continues and has gripped a hold of me by the throat. Going into such Deaf sleeps that I do not hear the alarm less than two feet from my face. The attending Physician and cutie-pa-tutti Nurse, named Botswana, also known as my wife has kept a watchful eye on I and I. A task that requires much patience, Kindred Spirit. It was earlier this evening she informed that I slept through five minutes of that damned alarm and after having listened to and timed the alarm, was compelled to turn the loud and annoying noise off...
...oh yes, speaking of noise and sounds. I have placed the sounds and noises that I hear in my ears and that have affected me and my life on this blog to share with you the reader. To provide insight. A sound. I would have to say in very unfortunate ways, I share too because there are times when I have had my fill of listening to these damned extra-special-added-bonus type symptoms of this Meniere's. By the way, there is a new sound that has come forth, so new I can't describe it other than to say it was loud, got louder and lasted for several minutes. It wasn't quite a roar, but it was sort of a roar. It was just so freaking loud my Kin. The hearing in my right-good-bad ear has toyed with my emotions today. From stopping (Out Of Sound) to the damned popping. Abruptly.
The nausea has ridden a high eight today and has been productive. Like this - up and into my throat, to the vomit into my mouth a few times and I have spewed. I appreciate my medications, but I do not want to taste them once let alone be brought back up for another taste. True?
Pains on the upper left rear and left side of my head have been an issue. Pains that reach a 'ten' in a flash, dissipate as quickly as they strike, but damn, to be struck by these cluster pains dozens and dozens of times per day - gets to be faking problematic! So painful, so distracting and so damned life altering. Very much like the pains that strike n my lungs when I have the pneumonia or the asthma, they hurt so damned bad!
There is SOMETHING GOING ON WITH MY VISION and I suspect that it is Meniere's related. I don't know. It is weird and I am afraid. I will be phoning He-Who-Touched-My-Brain, come morning.
The gloom and sadness continues and I really do not wish to expand any on this piece right now. My heart is heavy and I am sad. So, please? I will share this though, I yearn for an escape like I yearn for adventure. This way of being since the middle of November 2012 has weighed heavy on my heart. Heavy on my shoulders and I share with you that I am in dreary conditions.
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