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My right ear just popped for the one billionth time. Except with this one I was able to have a few moments of hearing clarity and even if but for a few - some are better than none I say to myself. I had this very sensation in my Deaf left just a week or so ago when there was a 'pop' in it. Surprised the shit out of me too! Because for an instant! I felt and thought as if I had made a clear, vivid right-of-way to the ear hole. Just for that very instant! I forgot that my left ear was out of sound. Stoned Cold Deaf.
The nausea has been riding me high today. Lingering near or at my Adam's apple most all day. There has not been any productivity today, but the gag reminds me of impending vomit. This is not a pretty feeling at all and neither is it romantic.
I am sweating as we have this exchange of thoughts. My scalp, moist from the perspiration that swells into little tear like droplets and slide down my neck. I wear a necklace of perspiration. The air condition is running and it is 16 January 2013. Winter is fifteen days old.
NOTE: Miss. K., my counselor with the Vocational Rehabilitation Department, just called me and with her call has perpetuated a synchronicity that has been a part of my life and Path for several day's now. If not a couple or three weeks really. Let me give you an example;, yesterday I visited with my therapist Sir Dude and a topic we discussed was inquiring about services rendered by the insurance company for Folks in similar situation as I. Services such as the YMCA or a gym where I would be able to receive coaching for the improvement of mind and body. God has my Spirit's covered! Earlier today I received a telephone call from a nurse with Walgreen's working in conjunction with my insurance company. And, yes we spoke of such services and benefits and I have learned that there are several medications that my wife and I take that are free at our drug store. RN Tina, and I spoke for forty-five minutes and discussed laboratories and medications and doctors and all of that medically related stuff. This energy that was initiated on yesterday at therapy continued...
...and then, now to have just had the connection with Miss. K., all has had the equivalent of a total wash over with the emotions stirred and energies created. There is something else to share here, that being a follow up talk Miss. K. and I had about the equipment that would better able me to live an aware and in a safer environment. What would have required a trip to her office just a week or so ago, is now something we'll be able to do via telephone.
She has the identical catalog as I!
What are the chances that she and I would have the same book? I don't know, but believe this, my breathe was knocked out of my lungs during our connection!
That story is one Blessed by The Great Spirit. My goodness-gracious-great-balls-on-fire!!
Right. Now, as I was saying...
...the sounds are different in both ears at this time. I would not know which one to choose being the most aggravating or disgusting, so I won't. I have no choice with these matters, my two ears do as they wish. And Holy Crap, I forgot about my third ear, the BAHA. (Bone Anchored Hearing Aid) This too requires daily hygiene. I smile because that sounds so disgusting yet it is truth. Eh? The sound in my left deaf ear is one that sounds like someone on an old fashioned type writer - not typing, just tapping over the same letter or number over and over and over again. It sounds like this: Tap-tap-tap-tap-tap-tap-tap-tap-tap-tap-tap-tap! Yes. And the right ear has cicadas and the high frequency of hire electrical wires. ALL AT THE SAME TIME! Fack man, what the fack is this?
By the way my dear guests, I do wish to say that even when times are dreadful with these Meniere's symptoms - the vomit at my throats escape hatch, the festival ride dizzy and tipsy that lingers all day, the sweating, perspiring and misting's. The damned falling and tripping-on- nothings and these foiken sounds! And then...
...even with the gloom's and blue's that came as part of a package deal with the cards I have been dealt - I do my best to do my best.
You know that I know you know, I've got to keep on movin'...
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