Dearest Kinfolk and Kindred,
I am so happy to share that after a twenty four hour period of no sleep, I was able to nap earlier and latched onto a short power rest. Not the eight hours of sleep I was growing accustomed to, but there was something special about this short visit to Dream World. It seems that there was enough of something in here to have me wake and have a pep in my step...
...and an enough of whatever went on while asleep to have had my deaf left ear go very quiet for a couple of hours. There actually may have been a few minutes of total peace and quiet coming from with-in my ear that is out of sound. (OOS)
I hesitate to celebrate much because I do not wish to jinx myself. I do not want to be harassed today by the loud and obnoxious noises and sounds that torture and drive mad my emotions every damned single day of life. It is so routine that moments like this, when I've had respite from the sounds are rare and exceptional. At the moment there is sound coming from within my left ear, but it is as if turned way down on volume. Maybe a three or two even on a scale of one to ten.
Such a relief this is. This is where that jinx I mentioned comes into play. You see, I am in fact totally horrified of being stoned cold deaf. As in hearing nothing at all in my OOS ear. I have grown used to having the peculiar and absurd sounds and noises that dwell within...
...yes, yes, yes I know I have a multitude of issues with the audio hallucinations and have grown fond of being called an anomaly. It is just fucking impossible to determine what sounds and or noises decide to surface at any given moment. Then there is the sickening lack of volume control. (I just got a beep-beep in the left one) The sound symptoms of Meniere's Disease, has me by my man parts and there's not a damned thing we can do. Nothing. Not-a-thing.
Except listen to He-Who-Touched-My-Brain say that we're at maximum capacity. Nothing to do.
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