Yes! This Is A "Share And Tell"! Maybe I am, Truths And Meniere's

Kindred,

There are a few things I would like to share this evening. Depending on how much I do share and how deep I go will determine where this communique heads.

1. Okay, just maybe I am cut from a different cloth than most folks you know. Same applies to me that this is true for me too. So look, we have something in common already. What gets my panties all knotted up is when Kin disrespect, the Spirit who is I. And I who am I.

2. I have said time and time again that I am who I am. I am still not a fully developed walking Spirit or Human - I am a work in progress. Have many more Paths I will encounter. It is an exciting thing for me. Learning Life and learning to live.

3. 2013, is going to be a spectacular year and I have this certainty that this is it! It is the time for some busting out of exile, my brothers and sisters. Please remember these words I say.

4. Prior to last nights medically induce sleep - I had been awake close to forty hours on zero sleep. This is something that my Internal Doctor felt compelled to offer a white buffered pill that induces sleep. Not rest, but sleep. I could have died today and wouldn't have known until Jesus and I were having a face to face and sipping on a cup of coffee..

5. Sometimes during these periods of no sleep I feel a sort of detachment from my being. Me and I - my very Being. Sometimes, I am able to sense the synchronicity of Life and My Path. I am able to feel it with my mind, body and Spirit's. This is truth. I am alive with this in my DNA.

5. There has been something about the Connecticut massacre that I am unable to shake off. This remains heavy in my cortex. My inner most workings have been forever affected by the events of that day. Oh yes, I feel the same as when America was attacked on 11 September 2001. I could feel the same ache in my heart Sunday when I broke my silence.

6. No worries, I'm not getting back into the ranting and whole soap box thing. God is with me.

7. I miss Cherokee very much and ever so deeply. My eye's see your mountains Cherokee, as my feelings and emotions sense being at home and reunited. My batteries are so recharged when able to visit Cherokee for a spell. Good Medicine.

8. My Great One, I hear the drums beat strongly for a good and strong dance from with in this ear that is sometimes very hard of hearing. On good days, I am able to tolerate sounds that are not too loud or too low. On these days, I also look at the lips of folks speaking with me. Crazy stuff, this self-taught lip reading. Tomorrow I will call one who has been refereed to me by my Vocational Rehabilitation counselor, for community out reach for those interested in learning American Sign Language. I do.

9. Ya-Hey! Let me share this with you, my guests and Kin! I called a communications company earlier today checking in to see if they might offer discounts to folks who are deaf and hard of hearing. The good right kind young lady refereed me to Tallahassee, Florida and the Dept. of Vocational Rehabilitation! Can you imagine that? I was enlightened.

10. Which initiated a motivation to call and connect with She-Who-Will-Guide-Many. It was nice to talk. She filled me in on some of this and I shared with her some of that. A good talk. Sadly, I am not far along enough in the process to be eligible for the aids I have been wishing for. Good God, it's only the truth. These are a couple of tools that would enhance my safety and well being. Just this afternoon, I was reminded to please keep the satellite door bell plugged in. A post with several boxes had arrived and if not for the howls and going on's with the hounds - I would have never known that someone had rang the door bell. Yes, it is sad that I must put these types of tools into my way of life or my day-to-day, but I know what I am doing. It is right.

11. It is called taking care of myself. I have a life to live and a Path to follow. So I will.

12. I have two young Human friends who live across this pond called a bay who are so cool and so awesome and I love them so much. I do as if they were my niece and nephew. Yes, the list of youth and the Innocent one's forever will enlighten me to different ways of looking at life, people and politics. I think of that little dude in the closet up there in that Connecticut school, with his sixteen class mates and teacher - while children down the hall were being slaughtered. Teachers, the principle and a doctor, were assassinated because they were putting themselves in the position to protect these very children under the roof of this place that has now become hollowed ground. Ya-Hey, this young fellow told his teacher and mates that he knows Judo and he would lead the way. !Yes! That Lil' Dude is an American! My Good God! These who are our little fellow human spirit's and are really so cool little individuals who are absolutely for real little Folks. My Good God!

13. Meniere's Disease, has been unkind for days. Sweats at nines and tens. Nausea at my throat and vomit into my mouth. Dizzy spells that are very uncomfortable. The periods of no sleep or too much sleep from the bi-lateral Meniere's Disease, the vertigo attacks and the symptoms of this have rendered me completely stomped and whooped. My entire body is sore, I ache and some areas are pained.

14. Behind my left ear, as in 'in' my ear' there has been hurt so bad. The strikes of neurological nerve lightening hurts so very bad. My face has been cramping on the left side and I have had my neck hurt me so I have wept. Great Spirit, please come to my aid.

15. I recently purchased a can of Key Lime Pie filling. It looked so delicious and I love Key Lime Pie and I love Key Wes too! But yes, I bought this pie filling thinking it was Key Lime Pie filling from Key West. But, oh no, this is manufactured in Pennsylvania. Honey's, I assumed. Yes.

16. This can of Key Lime Pie filling from Pennsylvania, that looks so awesome is in my pantry but we have no pie crusts to prepare this pie. This reminds me of the scenario where we might have the cool aid but not have the sugar. Or have cereal but no milk. Peanut Butter but no onions! Dig?

17. I am so trying to get in the Spirit of Christmas. Really, I am. More prayer: Note To Self.

18. Ya-Hey! I have not shared this yet so let me share this now! During review of labs with my Internal Medicine Doctor, we discovered with very much glee that my labs had come across 100% Green! Yes, oh yes, oh yes! Oh my "Goodness Gracious Great Balls On Fire!"! Yes, I am cheerful about these latest numbers. I will have a visit with laboratory in six months. HA! I can't wait.

19. Mom, I miss you so much!

20. 2013 approaches like a heard of Buffalo off in the prairie not too far away. Sounds like a constant rolling thunder, en'it? A break through year will soon be here. I am prepared and will prepare myself and My Path for more awesome lessons and journeys in my life. Yes? Yes!

21. Honorable Daughter Number One. I am missing you. Missing you so much it is difficult for me to truly express what it is in my Daddy Heart. I see your Mom and I see in your sister, that we all have this in common. We all miss you, Boo! And Honey, I know that you have these same feelings and emotions too. I feel your heart in mine even though thousands of miles separate me from you. My first born. God Nicole, I love you my dear daughter. With all of my heart, mind, body and Soul, I love you.

22. Yes, Daughter, I know you feel this way too. I mean, my shopping buddy is in a land so far and far away. Good goodness, you know that I know you know, we would have been out and about doing our thing. Shop till we dropped or the mall closes on us. Which we have done many a time in our day's. What memories! God, I miss you.

23. Rowena, my Honorable Daughter Number Two. Thank you for such an awesome week end. I am sorry I let you down by not going with you and maw to the store with the big red dot - but, I bet we'll attack soon. True? Sam, I am so proud of my tiny little baby that became a sparkle in my eye and heart. I miss not seeing you as much or as often as I would love. Yes, sure I know you and Mom would double team me, but that's okay too. I know in my heart it is a packaged deal.

24. I have had to take some serious ass inventory and have deduced that I am but a brilliant work in progress with work to do and I am aware I have much to do. What, with my commitment to a better Health, Mind, Body and Spirit's - I see clearly that this is going to take practice. And work. I know this. It is also going to require much motivation and a drive to get to what I have envisioned. I think that the laboratory test results are excellent examples of good indicators. Intentions. Seen.

25. My Dearest Guest's, I do wish to say to one and all thank you 1,000,000 times for your love, prayer and support. Knowing that Kindred and Kinfolk will read these words calms me and releases the idea of any negativity's. I have none here with this communique. Humbled. Blessed. My dear sweet quests. What a privilege to be in the company of so many fellow Earth Mates. Thank you all so very much.

I have no more to say about this.

Until the next time, love, peace and more peace, My Path.