"Noisy, Busy and Loud"

If I had to give tonight a name it would be "Noisy, Busy and Loud". Even in times of solitude and a total silence in my surrounding world, my ears battle between the two to see which one might create the most obnoxiously absurd and loud racket.

My right ear, tonight has been exceptionally problematic. The roars of jungle inhabitants - insects and all that are, roar simultaneously then abruptly cease to be. Then the roars re-engage and has not stopped for the past one hour and three quarter. As if these critters sense one is approaching, they go silent, to then return to chaos once all is clear - somewhere up here. In here, my dears.

The Deaf Left, went Deaf today, meaning I did not wear my third ear to process sound via my BAHA, the Bone Anchored Hearing Aid. It was almost like going without a garment of some sort. I felt wee naked and it felt as if I was missing out a bit, but really the sounds and noises here have kept me awake tonight because of the beeps and a roaring water fall. Not Niagara Falls, but loud damn it.

The nausea sits at the ready here in my throat. Have had vomit twice today. These were ambush type vomit as these caught me totally off guard. It was like this: While sitting on the sofa after reading the news paper - I vomited. Gross as all hail! The toxic sensations in my Center are stirred by this Meniere's, I share now! I do not recollect ever having two just-up and vomit episodes. I really don't think this has ever happened.

My right ear pops!

So tonight, once again I surrendered. This is why I am up and awake at just two shy of 0300. Good-goodness my Earth Mates, I don't know if what I share does justice for what it is I experience with this Meniere's Disease. Every day of life. There have been maybe one handful of Folk who tell me that they have Meniere's Disease. I sit back and I think to myself, these are some special gifted Folks to have that type of Meniere's Disease. I do not know why or how there are such differing degree's of this disease, but I have seen them in He-Who-Touched-My-Brain's Clinic. I try not to ruminate too much, but then who am I fooling with that comment? i think too damned much.

There is beeping going on right at this moment in my right ear! And what sounds like electricity traveling through wires up on them high electrical polls. Shit.

I am just a wee bit dizzy at this instant, but have been on the Roller Coaster ride at the Festival.

There was discharge from my implant today. Gross. Spiders and worms play mind games.

There has been pain and much discomfort in my neck and shoulder. I eagerly await word from the new Neurologist. For the time being I am using a compound created for me at a pharmacy in Sarasota, Florida. The most incredible stuff I've ever rubbed on my neck and upper parts.

There has been very much synchronicity cross My Path over the past few days and to include today. In past communiques, I have shared that Meniere's Disease has fucked with the time and the passing of time in my life, but I say this, the Meniere's can not touch synchronicity. An awesome observation! Energy around me and afar, moves at God's pace, not mine and it is my belief that God has blessed me with the ability to recognize many of these synchronicity's.

I think I will make another effort for sleep and dream world now. Peace to you, my Guest.