Meniere's Ass Stompin' Time

Kin,

The sounds and noises have gone completely unchained and are relentless with the loudness and the bizarre noises I am hearing and listening to. Torment through-out the day and now at 0121, the loudness creates the scene of not wanting to lay down in a quiet place or a dark room. It does not work that way, this symptom of the Meniere's that lives within this skin and skull does not permit much quiet or respite. Earlier this afternoon I listened to an old barn storming plane that seemed to be stuck in a state of suspended animation, above and immediately above my roof by one thousand feet or more, but it didn't move. This sound that I listened to for damned near an hour. No, I didn't go check and nope, I know the difference between a plane and a helicopter. This was not the helicopter.

Oh! Just then and with a quickness, a spider just squirmed about on the upper left corner of the back of my bobble head. Between my scalp and my hard ass skull. Yes, this time I went and rubbed the spot and #1, for the circulation of it and #2, to make damned sure there wasn't a fecking spider on my skull. Okay! What?

I had stepped out of doors an hour ago or so. For a breathe of this exceptionally cool weather that has just moved in to our part of Florida. And I listened as Mother Earth, hummed a low mono tone hum. I listened to Mother Earth's voice yet again. I know She is sad. These are not sounds or noises from within my skull, this hum is from the out side and near the deep channel behind the preserve and our sanctuary. Too weired to take or consider, then, I removed myself to the indoors. There has been a constant beeping going on in my deaf left ear. Steady and constant. Quicker than the second ticking on a watch or clock.

I have had the sweats, perspiration's and mistiness today. The past two days so bad I have had the need to shower twice per day and scrub my body with an abrasive wash cloth and turn the heat up on the shower. And scrub. I vomited today. In my mouth and in the commode. Nausea tagging along like a pain in the throat. Speaking of pain, I am experiencing pain deep within my ear and head behind my ears. Yes, both ears. Spoke with He-Who-Touched-My-Brain, about this.

I tripped on my own Nike flop-flips today. Twice. My coordination was odd and I pushed myself by being safe and walking with intention. As in, I intended on walking with steadfast purpose.

This is all about my business remember. My Better State of Health, Mind, Body and Spirit's. My doctor and I, I believe are beginning to let it really sink in that we are on a course to make things better. Not heal, because there is no cure, but to make life comfortable and provide me dignity while walking My Path. There's only so much that can be done with this Meniere's Disease and the pail full of symptoms that accompany this maddening invisible disease. This has been a long period of Meniere's Ass Stompin'. I'm tired from getting stomped so much.

There's no more for me to say.