Should You Ever Need Me, Feck Off...

Relations,

Back in the day, I had this expression that went something like like this...

..."should you ever need me for anything at all, never hesitate to give me a call".

With this expression, and my walk the talk attitude, I won several awards with a huge hospital corporation, accolade after accolade, bonus's, news paper articles and a reputation that preceded me. Simply because I followed what I preached and "promised". An expression that I talked not only at work, but also amongst those that were a part of my life and Path at the time.

Over the years I continued with this expression and walked the talk. I learned early on not to make promises I could not keep. If one of my jobs needed me, they knew who to call. My peer's, management and even customer's knew who to call. and no, it wasn't no damned ghost buster's...

...say, let me say and share this with you, my Guests. These words I have expressed were not meant for bragging or boastful purposes.These are shared because this is the way I've lived life and My Path all of these years. Before I truly realized and very truly understood the impact on Folks and their Path's, I was walking and talking the way. Since my younger years, even during those very years I was being raped and sexually abused...

...through the years of irresponsible decisions and the fuck ups. You see, for I and I, It was learning from them that kept me balanced and continuing to focus on using a servitude approach in life, my means and ways of walking with my fellow Earth Mates. For my steps such means of communications and actions came easy. Even in the U.S. Army, the thoughtfulness thinking, approach and preparation gave me as Blessing's, an even broader canvas on which to express my willingness to aid and assist them in need of my attention.

I was there for them who needed a helping hand in support groups, a sponsor and volunteered with the Tampa AIDS Network for years. My check book always open for Kinfolk and Kindred, those less fortunate than I. My commitment included even those fellow earth mates who did not learn from their mistakes. And included Kindred I did not know. I was there. With open arms that in all reality stayed open all night.

I love to hug. Really, I do.

Every once in a while, I'll catch myself still saying those words...

...this has been a way of life for me. Sometimes it hurts when one realizes that it's not the same urgency for every one else in life. I know it has hurt me. Most of all, for me the hurt cuts deeper because I am not in the same position health wise to do all I used to do for others. Even though I still will find ways to help.

My nature it must be...

...should you ever need me...