Symptoms of Meniere's, Miss. S. And Trust

After Miss. S. and I had a brief break in our testing and communicating this afternoon, I had this peculiarly loud tone that was neither a hum nor a beep - but somewhere between the two sounds and noises. Since then the sound revisits, stays a spell then moves along and then the process repeats itself naturally. I don't know specifics or the whys and what nots and shit.

Never any louder than it was there in the office with with Miss. S. I wanted to ask her if she heard what I was hearing, but have learned not to. At this very instant the sounds in my right ear is so loud that it competes with the song on the itunes. The sounds of Tarzan's Jungle are roaring as loud as if they're all on the way to assist Tarzan with some noble endeavour or another. The sounds and noises are so loud that what I am experiencing right now is very truly inhumane. I know this! If we were to subject Folks to these absurd sounds out loud - there are many who would consider this a form of torture. As for me, I take my medication as ordered. I try to rest when I can while having these types of issues and when I am surrounded by the sleep, I attempt to remain awake and be productive as possible with out placing myself in harms way..

I am trying real hard to not beat myself up over those damned Math marks. Stewie, would tell me that I am ruminating. I would be obliged to agree, because my Stewie is always correct.

I really am trying to believe in the words spoken by Miss. S., earlier today. She said, "you're going to have to trust in us on this", said, Ma'am. She was referring to she and Miss. K., over at Vocational Rehab. Two very important people in my life right now. There is the urge to reach out and connect as there have been a couple of important things come to mind that I wish to share with her. My goodness, my dear allies, please work with me on the establishing of trust. Please. And yes, I'm working on it. Word.

Nausea, has remained at the point of where my neck and upper chest meet, all the day long. I have had productive nausea and have burped trying to assist with control. To no avail. There is no control of this nausea. The dizziness was worthy of extra attention and the balance and coordination piece were compromised. Oh My Dear God, I don't want to fall in public while alone. Please.

Seems like these cycles come more frequently. I know that this emotional roller coaster is really beginning to work my damned nerves. I have a call in to Sir Dude and will visit him soon.