The Word is, Awesome

Yes, this year 2012 is going to be a product of my focus and dedication to myself for my self. In Mind, Spirit and Health.

...a continued fight against the depression, the battles with Meniere's Disease, the battles also with the asthma and pneumonia's.

There is this word that has stuck to the inside of my mind like a sticky note. That word is AWESOME! Plastic letter magnets spelling Awesome on the Refrigerator between my ear's.

This Awesomeness, is going to become a very part of my verbiage, a piece off the lexicon for the next few months or so. As it is I have planned.

You see? It is my beleif that as long as I keep this word in my mind and heart, and speak it and talk it, I will say it. Oh, Look, all of this illness and medical exhile rubbish has grown so very old. I reckon this has been brewing and going on for so long...

...building up to this self-realization that I can be Awesome! Pick my chin up and move on and I bust a move while I can and leave the bullshit on the dance floor. Or I can let the "ALL" of what Health and Life has been like the past few years eat me up into a Man that is not me. A Man I don't want to be. See? Bloody Hell! I was in there pretty dark and gloomy there for a spell...

...wait a second, I can still see that shit in the rear view mirror, so I better practice what I preach and teach myself to let it "just be awesome".
I have grown tired of the same old, "Oh, IMMA between this and that or between a rock and granite".

The oddest of things have been going on for a spell. One example is the getting to the point of starting to live with and make sense of living this meniere's disease...

...and it's vertigo attacks and sypmtoms prior too or post attack sypmtoms.

I want to tell Kindred, I'm Awesome!, when asked how are you doing. I want to feel Awesome...

...I want to be Awesome...

...that's all.