Please, Hush Hush...

...I see One found and crossed My Path by typing in the words "suicide, meniere's". I may share today that I have been there. Yes you see, I had the thoughts and premeditated demise much too many times.

I feel certain that just as it is so easy for me to see the STATS on this blog - there must be STATS somewhere, someplace of those who decided to act on their thoughts and premeditation's because of the Meniere's Disease...

...Meniere's Disease, is an invisible disease that eats away at some us who carry this disease every fucking day of our lives. Yes, there is no doubt that many of us with this disgusting life interrupting scenario's have statistics somewhere. Shit, there's statistics showing how many Folk's have this BAHA, Bone Anchored Hearing Aid, it's an implant. What?! Sometimes the all of the disease dictates the activities of a day-to-day life - sometimes, this routine of nausea, vomiting or not, sweating like a horse, the dizziness that depletes the energy from within...

...this sounds and noises, the Worms that live on both of my head now, a deaf ear that forgets it's Deaf, balance and coordination issues - everyfuckingday?! Really! There are times when enough is enough! Com' on, already!

Please, hush hush and let me listen to the silence.

This country maintains statistics on how many Women die from Breast Cancer. Ode to Nancy!  Same with Men and our prostate cancers. Skin Cancer, like the one's scraped off my face. Multiple Melanoma's - the Bones Cancer has it's own statistics. My dad died from that one.

Please God! No more statistics! Let there be CURE'S!

Please, hush hush. Listen quietly to the breeze make music passing through my Pine in the South West lawn...please, hush hush...

The Pentagon has STATS on how many of our Military have been killed. How they were killed. How many of our Brothers and Sisters in uniform have killed themselves. This is something that haunts me everyday. Knowing that OUR government maintains these numbers and does little to aid and or assist. It would be right to have aid numbers rolling on a ticker tape at the bottom of the television when the News reporter, shares these fucked up statistics.

We have statistics that reflect , how many of us Survivors Of Rape, Sexual Abuse and Incest, have committed the suicide. Statistics that show how many "Gay Folks", that live in my Spirit's, took that step off the top of a tall parking garage. Or slit their pulsing artery of the right wrist. Them who pulled the trigger or lie on Rail Road tracks, because of this society. Bullying. Hatred.

Oh, by the way the term "Gay Folks", is mine. Gay Folks, includes every aspect of the Gay Community...

...Encompasses the Spectrum of OUR Rainbow. The Rainbow that is a reflection of we all...

...if we all would just please, hush hush! And listen...

So much bitterness on this planet known as Mother Earth! Too much WAR! We execute one another every day of every week and so on. We have statistics for this and statistics for Black on Black slaughter. Genocide of Indians here in this, OUR country. Genocide in parts of Africa. Genocide in Central America. Genocides of the old Czech Republic. Shit! Folks, this is the year of Our Lord, 2012! And we still commit outrages against one and another?! 

The All of Me and many who have crossed My Path, Kindred, and of the so many of us Folks who pray and believe in fellow Woman/Man Kind. That we will see an International Love and Respect Organization someday. One that would include  every aspect of the Earth Mother as one large community.

I bet there's statistics on folks out there, who like me can imagine such a community. And keep the Faith. Grace. Walking My Path, while I work diligently every day of my life,  to not become just another statistic. Honestly. I promise.

Please, hush hush...

me