Good Day Relations,
Wanted to update all on where this latest attack has taken me...
...have continued to sleep fifteen or so hours a day the past two or three. Have made it a purpose to get up and move about for the sake of circulation of blood and body parts. I am wanting to sleep right now, but my wife and daughter will soon be home from work and I would like to spend some time with them. The Sleep and their work hours have created a big gap in my day where I am home alone. My bride had several days off over holiday's and it was so cool. Even if we did much of nothing - just having her near me was so awesome and kept the gloom away. Sadly, I slept through much of her time off. I suspect there was an added sensation of protection for me while she was here with me.
The sounds/noises have remained and have been quite problematic as there are times when the sounds become overwhelming and require a shut down. The sounds and noises very rarely leave me be. At this moment I am listening to two different sounds coming from one and each ear. In the left Deaf ear I have a loud beeping going on and in the right hard of hearing ear there is the Amazon River Rain Forest at dusk. With every bitchin' cricket and cicada at high musical volume. I know all they want is a piece of something, but I be damned if this doesn't remind me of what madness feels like! The beeping is an all together seperate noise and it has been a beep-beep-beeping that's going on. Sounds like someone messing around with their micro wave oven. Shit!
The nausea has remained in the bottom of my throat most of today. I had sleep earlier and was so hopeful of some releif. There was none. It's still there even as I have this chat with you, the reader and my guest. I have not vomited today nor has any escaped into my mouth, which is never a pleasent thing. I don't give a damn what it was I may have just eatten. Vomit is vomit is vomit...
...have had the sweats, perspirations and mistings today. If not one the other. Ohhhhhhhh, them foiken crikets! At this very moment I am simply moist as a mist settles about my head and neck. This very cold weather we've had here hasn't helped much at all. I'm such a Meniere's freak.
On Wednesday, the day of my doctor's appointment I felt pyschically sure and able for a couple of hours, and it felt awesome. Today am weak and sleepy. The gloom is right over there, it lives upstairs from me.
I have had stumbles today. The coordination and balance off center a bit.
It's a tough task working on this rebirth of the awesomeness within me. I give my word that this is the direction I wish to embark and will focus on "bringing back the awesome"! I promise to myself.
Kindred, even though I knew the meaning, I looked up the definition of the word "swath" for poop's and laugh's. The word which was the word used by He-Who-Touched-My-Brain, my Good Right Doctor, is same - same...
...yes, I still see very clearly his description as he demonstrated with his thumb and fingers...
...I've just touched the lumps on the side of my skull where my implant lives and am knowing that there will in fact be surgery in my near future.
Between then and now I will continue to establish a sound foundation on which to build some awesomeness in my day-to-day. Gloom must leave and be replaced with some Awesomeness!
This is all...
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