Meniere's Disease, Off To See "He-Who-Touched-My-Brain"

Will be off to see my good doctor, He-Who-Touched-My-Brain, in one hour or so. Looking very much forward to seeing his smiling face and eager to recieve one of his powerful Brother Hugs. Oh yes, just in case you did not know, I'm a hugger not a hitter, ala I am a lover not a fighter.

This visit is quite apropos, as it has been one week ago I had the Meniere's attack that has rendered me a sleeping machine. Have slept a great amount this past week - exceeding 100 by several hours easiely.

The past two day's while I have been awake, I have been thinking in an assertively positive and self-loving way, rather than the self loathing and self-pity that has been common in the past. Am eager to see my good doctor.

But then, you probably couldn't see that, eh? I'm like a Fat Kid waiting to see Santa for that free candy! Ha!

There is one negative that has me a bit troubled and that is I have grown another lump at the site of implant. It's a lumpty lump's lump. So there is a wee bit of weird anxiety thing kicking in anticipation of a snip and cut. I'm afraid...

...um, I have found another lump on Mr. Wang and will be coordinating a visit with She-Who-Enjoys-Snips-and-Cuts. Oh Lord. I remember the last time she sniped at Mr. Wang - I screamed like a petit woman having her first wax done. Man, please? I'll keep an eye on Mr. Wang, like this too. About every-damned-day? Okay?

Really?

Anyway's, I'll remember to say the word de'jure, "Awesome", as many times as I can. Maybe the "Holding Hands" piece doctor speaks of is something for me to work with and towards to - not against.

I'll share this real quick, because I've got to go...

...Meniere's Disease, has become a part of my life. Like my Levi 501's or my Converse, this is really shittin' going to be with Me for the remainder of my time here on Earth Mother. I might as well write a song, "Me and Mr. and Mrs. Meniere's Disease, Le Meneja Twa". If I had continued to fight and fight - I would've been the One to lose. No one else but this One sitting here tap-tipping. Not the doctors in my index file, not the therapist's I may know or visit. It would've been me to lose. I think I was heading towards some dangerous territory there for a spell. Naw Boo, I WAS in the danger zone.

Today, things are running just a wee bit easier. Oui? Oui!

But let me share, I'm thinking I've got to keep this going, keep it AWESOME too!

This is all.