She-The-One-I-Married Rushed To Emergency Department

Brenda, my bride, was rushed off to the Emergency Department this morning. She was suffering from very productive nausea, pains and an over-all disposition that required emergency care. She is home now and is comfortable in her favorite spot to relax. One of the medications provided is beginning to wear off giving her high anxiety and she is quite anxious. Yet all-in-all she is doing well and is reclined. The doctors have located a stone in her kidney and have provided medication to ease the discomfort and nausea.

I have let this affect me in an emotional way and let myself go to the place of "The What-If's?". I won't list them all but will share this one...

What if something dreadful should happen to Brenda? Yes, I am Man, but I think to myself, should something catastrophic happen to the one I married I would go absolutely mad. So let me then establish right now with these words I share with all Relations - should something catastrophic ever happen to She-The-One-I-Married, insure I am placed under some form of observation by folks educated to assist folks who have gone mad. This is not a joke. If not institutionally, then Home Health. Know I have typed these words this 20th day of July 2011 and expect that these wishes are to be held in high esteem...

...what took place this morning has affected me in sad and peculiar ways of thought. I just don't know what I would do. I don't.

Brenda, has been my doctor, my nurse, coach, my wife of 31 years and my BFF.

Today is day three from the vertigo attack on Monday. I have slept long good hours of sleep until this morning.

The post vertigo attacks are stirred up good and plenty. I am also in a place where I have too much rushing through my thoughts that I am rendered exhausted, nauseated, and dizzy. Atop the already existing Meniere's Disease, post vertigo attack symptoms. I am sweating and have taken medication as He-Who-Touched-My-Brain, directed. My Left Deaf ear is beeping out loud and my Right-Good-Bad ear has been plopping. Have noticed some discomfort in my Left Deaf ear hole since two evenings ago.

I feel the angst in my Core...