At this moment I am perspiring due to the nausea in my throat. I have not vomited today but have had the taste of it in my mouth most of the day.
I am dizzy to the degree of having to be cautious as I walk and take every step properly here in this maze called my Lodge. It's not that we're over stuffed or like them who collect too much, you know? Like them on the television? It's just that I know damn good and well I have to be on my P's and Q's every minute...when up and about that becomes more like every second. It's on day's like today that I consider myself most at risk. Too much bumping into walls and the furniture. There have been times when I have tripped over nothing. For real.
My Worm's that dwell in my left skull are napping at the moment...the shit's. They sure were busy this morning.
My Left Dear Ear has been listening to crickets OUTloud and for what seems the whole day long. Must be thousands of them in my ear! Bastards! Woke early to take a sleep at 1100 then wake shortly after for a return to slumber for a spell. It is because I am exhausted and truly, very frustrated...
...my Right-Good-Bad Ear has had the sounds of the voices. It's because of a voice I heard just a while ago that I got up and steady moving on as I journaled. It was a down right weird voice. Anyways, I have had moments of silence, or moments of tunnel hearing. Oh yes, the airboat that sits behind my house and rev's the motor up good and loud.
Slept most of yesterday away, The Tuesday. I slept through most of this past Monday away. And yes, I have been to Dream World twice today and will be returning indirectly. This blogg has been in my mind and Spirit's. So I wanted to get up right and tap a few words to my Relations.
On this past Sunday, I learned that the motion of the ocean is not so much a friend of mine. I was a bumbling, fumbling, tripping mule, and just kept falling into the water. I was the goofy-ass Dude trying to drown himself. I suspect. Unless, I did just let go and let the current have it's way with me...Oh, naw-naw Boo! I stayed a spell and sat a spell and left at a reasonable time. Many Relations gathered for a farewell party for my Honorable Daughter Number One. It made my heart happy to see so many of her friends show up. For me the gathering was a reminder of my daughter going far and away. But it sure did damn hit my Daddy Heart! My baby...
It was necessary to sleep a while earlier. So many sounds! So many noises! The want of a good vomit just to help me feel a bit better. Meniere's has moved in Honey.
Maybe I go to my secret place soon...maybe now.
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