Pertaining to the Meniere's Disease, I am nauseated to the point of burping vomit and can taste the nothing in my stomach. Have had to rinse with Listerine twice to get the taste of the nothing from my tongue, teeth, throat and mind.
I have been going through the sweats something quite ugly today - from sweating so heavy my t-shirt sticks to my body, to perspiration and the sweating ball cap to a misty perspiration..it's disgusting. There are days when I'll go through three t-shirts. Sometimes even after I have showered.
The dizziness is a disgusting annoyance and very trouble-some. Since the fall last Friday, I have become almost hyper-vigilent. Yes. An honest self-observation. I am truly scared of having another fall...when will I have another fall? Where will I be when I fall the next time? I wonder and contemplate. Have I used up my nine lives? Them that kept me from broken bones and the loss of blood. I am "knowing" that dizziness plays a huge part in my falls. But hell, really? I have fallen so many times - I lost count...
...I'll never ever forget the day a "co-owner" of our Coffee House Company, and one I considered a dear Spirit and friend, patched me up because of a fall I took on the parking lot of our Coffee House Company. We both cried and laughed as she applied First Aid, She-Who-Shares-Cherokee, is her name. I miss her and I miss her husband too. Two extraordinary Kindred Folks. I'll never forget them. That was the last day I wore my green apron. That was the day my life got pulled inside out. Living with The Dizziness does this to me...
...so I wait for the next fall.
The Funky Worms are alive and well on the left side of my skull. I am informed time and time again that these are nerve related..."Honey, please don't let a worm come squirming out the side of my head"! Dad-Gum! There would be too much drama for me to handle.
My Left Deaf ear has been active with sounds all day today. I suppose making up for the yesterday. Loud beeps sending out an unknown message to an unknown people. On occassion a long loud beeeeeeeep comes about. My left inner ear continues to trouble me with intermittent pain. My right-bad-good ear has the sounds of a beautiful mountain valley as the sun sets over the Smokey Mountains...am trying to distract my right-good-bad ear, but have failed with various tunes and songs. I must go along - my business as business. As usual. And listen to both Robert Mirabal and the Smokey Mountain valley sunset. This noise is such as music in my ear. Today!
K-Lo and I said our farewells today. We have exhausted our allotted amount of sessions. There is a loss in my center knowing I may never see my teacher again. But I can share this truthfully and gladly, K-Lo taught me many lessons and again today he shared with me good words and good talk. I listen, remember and work what he has taught me. Some folk, I guess, don't take Physical Therapy seriously or to their benefit. Sad but true story. K-Lo, from my Spirit's to your's, thank you very much, Teacher.
Listen, I have a helecopter in my back yard? Clear as crystal - there is a helecopter parked in my back yard. As told to me by my Right-Good-Bad ear.
Think I'll get atop John Wayne and trot down this Path of mine a spell. Just for a spell - not too long, as I can feel the consequnces of our P.T.
Oh well, what can you do when you live in a shoe?
I wish all Relations, peace.
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