As Life Has Been

First of all, please let me thank all for their call's, thought's, prayer's and concerns about the fall I had last Friday, 01 July 11. I thank you from my Spirit's to your Spirit's. I am so very blessed to have so many wonderful Kindred and Relations. My heart is full of warmth and graditude. Thank you.

My body is still sore and aches. The spot where I hit my head on the floor is the most problematic as new pain's shoot through the left side of my skull. At times, like lightening striking, suddenly and without notice. The pain in my neck has become complicated because there are times when my neck troubles me the same old way - while other times appear to have a different pain compounding the pain that has been there a mighty long time. My shoulders remain sore as do my hips and left knee really hurts. A new pain is one that I have in my lower right torso, between my hip and ribs. I'll keep a feel out for it. Have slept an awful lot since then, rather like post vertigo attack symptoms. Should it or anything else become worse I will make an appointment for a doctor visit. Made contact with my other doctors this morning.

My hearing has been twisted with the "too loud" to "the would you please repeat that?". My right ear listens to the rain and thunder as a storm pass's by. I also have some R. Carlos Nakai, offering some aid to combat the noises that have driven me mad in my right good bad ear. The nausea is an eight, I am sweating and have a bad case of dizziness.

The rains, lightening and thunder is felt in my heart, Great Spirit is an angry God today...

...the devil had a victory in Orlando, Florida today. If Ms. So-And-So-White-Lady, had been Latina, Black, Asian, Native American or of any other minority or nationality - the verdict we heard this afternoon would have been a totally different one. Ms. So-And-So-White-Lady, got away with one of the most heinous crimes a parent can commit upon their own flesh and blood...to plan and then to murder her only child, an Earth Angel. Then too, to dishonor the remains of her child, her baby, is well beyond my words of expression. There is nothing I can say or do to change this out come and why I have permitted this to trouble me so, is also something well beyond my mind set.

What I can say or share are these, my simple thought's about something else pertaining to Ms. So-And-So. She is whiter than white bread AND we live in the South Eastern United States of America. Where apparently being white is still "bonus". I have seen this type of story all my life! Hell, since a wee boy watching police dogs attacking Women and Men seeking Equal Right's as fellow American's. Women and Men, having dogs turned loose on them to do harm and injury. Hearing and watching what I saw and heard as a young Mixed Breed...listening to the word "Nigger" spoken on our television's nightly! Watched and listened to how White men got away with lynchings, rape and murder. Time and time again. Time after time. Not only here in Florida, but through-out the South Eastern United States of America...

...I remember listening to discriptions of Indians from "this" land. The horror and blood shed by our Red People, at the hands of our United States Army and FBI in the 1960's - as it was in the 1860's. As it is to this very damned day. Native Lands that continue to be manipulated by the White Man. Broken treaty after broken treaty after broken treaty. Native American's had to wait until the early 1970's to gain the Right to Vote, here in the United States of America. The lands of where our Grand Parent's were buried. Lands which did not belong to them "The Original Boat People". The First Nations.

Please, to the two or three who speak ill of me when I speak my words. Go ahead and talk your talk...just keep it away from me. It makes me sick to my stomach when Folks try to "teach" me about Race Relations and how much things have changed. White people this and white people that...

...you blind ignorant fools. Please, with a kind approach and my most utter respect, fuck off.


We are in the year 2011...

...month after month, year after year, I read, watch and listen to this shit. Today, I break my silence on a subject and offer my honest word on something often spoken of around here and amongst other Circles. That being, "when the new's is on televison or the radio and the reporter is about to report on a crime - "I" pray it isn't an Indian first, secondly a Latino and please not a Black person. Because I know, we know it's jail and then prison time for any of the before mentioned fellow human beings.

What more can I say. I've said enough. Maybe I've said too much. But WAIT, as a Mixed Breed individual living in these United States of America, I have the Right to Speak...

...Maybe I didn't say enough.

p.s. May tiny little Earth Angel Caylee, live on as one of God's Beautiful Angels...for Eternity.