Am awake and have done some activities in the house today. Sort of giving myself something to do as Brenda does the same and as it keeps me from my bed, this is a bonus. Gathering items for donation to the American Cancer Research Center and am pleased with what has been gathered thus far. Have taken breaks for hydration and to keep my skin nice and healthy, as well as to push my body a wee while. We've donated to diffirent organization's for years, but with with my Dad having died by the cancer and seeing what cancer did to Dad, us, his children, and how it has affected other Kinfolk, near and dear, far and away. Dad! Damn it! This organization instantly bacame our organization to go to. The ACRC, has a store over in Saint Petersburg or Largo maybe, that sell's the donated items that are inspected to ensure it is quality, clean and ready to go to a new home. I also enjoy doing this because it provides me the knowledge and comfort that we're "green" by donating product that will be used by others right here in Tampa Bay. Much rather work it like this, rather than it being disposed of, to end up in some landfill or incinerator.
I miss my Pa, one hell of alot! Dad was the same way! Dad was "Green" before anybody ever talked of being "Green". The world is not the same without Mom or my Dad here. Or my dear kid brother, David. They've gone home to God and I miss them so very much and love them still. For as long as forever be...
...A son's lament...did I? Was I? I know I was able to be near and have our talks. I thank God, and am indebted to God, for providing me the Blessing's of being so near our parent's when God called them home...when the Chariot's came to take them home...but, was I? Did I?
Today, Meniere's has been nauseated, I have been dizzy, sweating, and perspiration. I am listening to crickets in my right-good-bad-ear aloud and my Left Deaf is beeping. Not constant today, every once in a bit, I'll get a beep that I hear approaching and then listen to it as it fades away. The worms have been awake off and on today...foiken little things take naps, en'it? My hearing is way off. Bad off, had to have the volume for the television set on maximum earlier. I'm sitting in silence right now. Today has been a day to walk with a purpose on every step. The balance and coordination thing has been off. So, I continue with the hyper-vigilance! These freaking falls are very scarey - um, no, pure terror! Look, I'm 51, a rather large 6'2 and I think I've heard myself scream once or twice when falling. The sudden out-of-the-clear-blue falls are the most terrifing! I know I screamed aloud for these.
I mean really, it is! Shit!
Screamed Out Loud? Naw Boooooo, no shame with that.
Today, has been a good day to die, and it surely has been a good day to be alive.
Tomorrow, we will spend time with Kinfolk, to celebrate the first birthday of a beautiful tiny little Sweetie Pie, cousin. And Oh! It is so getting me out and about! Even if it is but a couple or three hours. I can't wait! Weeeeeeeeeee-doggy!
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