A Brief Report

A brief report to share that I have been troubled by a steady and yet, inconsistent beeping originating from my left deaf ear. Since 1730 last afternoon, these beeps have tested my best in coping skills when it comes to this torture. I say right now that this is something that has a mind of its own and manipulates by the steady, yet inconsistent rhythm. But, to hell with that, I have had and am having a beeping attack that has not ceased.

It drives me absolutely mad. I am able to beep 'out' loud with the beeping that is going on in my deaf ear hole to the brain. My implant and abutment are deaf too, until I press my processor into the side of my scalp. I am cutting my hair in mourning come the morrow. I am almost afraid at what I will see at the site of implant. The many curls that I have let relax have actually been a form of camouflage, coverage of the processor and also have been an issue. When the longer hair gets stuck between the processor, abutment and implant, it hurts and I am sure probably not too clever to have afro puff hair get in the way of hearing. I ain't got time for that.

The right-good-bad-ear-hole-to-the-brain, has had challenges aplenty. Too many. Since the time has come for me to begin the process of finding the good right hearing aid for me, I have kept an eye open. Kindred, these folks are charging thousands and thousands of dollars for something that will enhance my day to day life style. How am I to be provided an opportunity to purchase one of quality while not having to suffer sticker shock. Just like every damned time I purchase a latest pair of lens, I am like, what the FAQ, every time. This right ear is all the ear I've got left. Sometimes, I so want to try on a pair of those new BOSE old school head sets, I know those mama's stomp, but I only have one listening ear, so I leave it alone.

Facial spasms times five or six times today. The spider's play mind games because I let forget how these bastards scurry about real quick like. Known to scare grown ass man. Ha! Let a spider or worm run amok in your scalp. Let a constant beep-beeping be a part of your day for what now is several hours. This is nothing new for me. Please. The deep burning and hurting pains with-in both ears are an enigma. Doctor D., does not find issue. I say tonight that the pain can get so bad that I have had unpleasant thoughts cross my mind. I work it and I work it. These damned pains are fucking real life and are alive. Please? At this instant I am listening to some sort of Angelic, aura of sound, boasting loudly from the same deaf left. While all along a solitary beep breaks through every once and again just to remind me that it is still here.

The occasional silence of my right ear hole still scares me. Sometimes, I totally forget and freak out. Some mornings, I so very truly forget there just might could be a gap of silence for me to wait out. It happens. Sometimes like that silly ground hog day motion picture. A brief report.

Left said, beep. I say good morning. Ciao Bella's.