Why it is I still find myself bewildered and troubled about being judged - is very honestly beyond me and the beliefs I have about being open and honest with the communiques I publish on this Blog. I suspect if I were to fabricate a life or perjure my very being - many would find things delightful and amusing...
...and even then, I admit there are times when I am in fact delightful and amusing. But, Good-God! I'm not going to misrepresent this mortal coil. I am not perfect and have never been perfect. I am me. I am who I am. I am a Survivor! I have no reason to lie in this Life or on this Path. Soon, my time here will no longer be. Why lie? Shit, there's alot of work in lieing! I have enough to do here to keep me afloat. Besides, I live so the preacher don't have to lie. ("Leann Womack")
All I've ever asked is that one not judge me or what it is I have lived to tell. You do not know how my shoes fit. You did not see "life" with my eye's. If you my Kindred and Relations are compelled to judge me for these words I share, I kindly ask you to disengage from my Spirit's and I, and move on...
...I have already felt the verdicts rendered and smell the shit over being honest and open about my Path and Trails - today's and the yester-years.
Interestingly enough, I now find myself in a conundrum.
If some in my Circle feel it necessary to put on unblemished masks - then so be it. You forget I have seen all your masks and I listen as you gnash your teeth. So pathetic. I will not permit myself to be shamed for being honest. Shit, I am a grown ass man...
...why lie?
No more games with my words please.
If my truths disturb your lies that bad - go shit on someone else's yard. If your lies are that important to you, then take them and you else-where. Now then, let it be done...
...just don't. Please, just don't disturb my truthful way of speaking. Nor the sincere routes of My Path. I walk here as it was Great Spirit, had planned long before I ever made it to Earth Mother.
My heart is saddened and heavy. What can you do? And no my dear friend in the other "Georgia", I won't say it...
Love and peace...
John Wayne, do you want to take a look and see at the garden?
Just NO running damn it!
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