My Daughter, The Eagle

Today is Friday, the 05 Aug. 11.

My emotional and psychological states are both meshed in with the sadness - which compounds my depression. As an arm may have a diagonosis of a compound fracture, my heart and psyche have sustained the same form of fracture. I have cried so much the past couple/few days, I actually have had a pain develope in my heart as a consequence.

My eldest flew out yesterday afternoon. Somewhere so far and so away. I wept myself into a nap yesterday a short bit after we got back from the airport. And cried myself to sleep last night....over two hours worth of prayerful tears. Today has brought about bouts of emotional melt downs and many more tears.

There was just a moment there at the check entry I wanted so much to scream "please, Nikki don't go!". But I didn't. Neither did I weep in the company of others. What's a dad to do? I was screaming inside my heart. This compares nothing very little to when she "moved" off to Tallahassee. (Lord, please let it be that I spelt the name of Tallahassee correctly). We were able to see one another on a pleasent frequent basis. Oh, naw-naw. This was something on an entire level of it's own. A new experiance for her and for our family...

...yes, Great One, I know this is yet another step in my daughters life as an independant, mature and responsible young WOman. She is so strong and is steadfast with every endeavor she involves herslf with. She is an Eagle. She spreads her wings wider and better than her dad/I could have ever imagined...

...no this is not a beat-me-up-session, this is to let the "World", know I am Honored to have her as my baby, my daughter, and as a fellow adult...

...a WOman of this community called Earth Mother.

Honorable daughter, I love you with every breath. I thank The One God, for Blessing your Mom and I with such a spendid family. For you my young Nikki, and for your Baby Sister Sam! Our other Eagle.

We are so blessed. Thank you God! Thank You, my Great Spirit.

Love, Pa

p.s. Nik, walk in beauty...and take each step with purpose.

Yes, my daughter is an Eagle!