Mea Culpa...

My acknowlede-ment of yesterdays sad song entry is a way for me to ask that one and all please excuse me. Yes, I got choked up and instead of dealing with that subject somewhere quietly, I commenced to share this anguish and heartache pretty much quietly aloud...as in Screaming in Silence...

...mea culpa. Please.

Have just woke up from a self-induced/forced hour and one quarter of refuge and rest in my safe place. There was a few minutes earlier where I had a really bad dizzy spell, and needless to say when it hit I thought for sure I was headed towards a Meniere's Attack. Was able to make it to bed and I must say the dizziness is quite some better.

The dizziness does in fact continue and I've taken ordered medications and am feeling just a wee bit more planted on to Earth Mother. When I get the bad dizziness or the motions created by an attack - there is no being planted. Am adrift and controlled by whatever the meniere's desires...

...I am nauseated something ugly. High nausea with an incident just minutes ago where I burped because I think it helps - and I burped up some cereal and milk/juice combo. Some of this escaped via the nose. Oh shit, how much more gross can this be!

I am centering slowly...breath. Take each breathe with a soothing purpose.

I am misting and perspiring at this moment. Earlier my t-shirt was stuck to my chest. I share this with you right here - Thank God for good deodorant! Honey please, sometimes I pick up a little whiff. Okay? No mas.
Meaning no more on this topic. For now anyway's. Am just thankful for my stick of Old Spice! LOL!

The worms are sleeping at this time. They stayed up long after my double-wide ass went to off to slumber. For now, it's nice to not have those sensations for sure. No pain neither! In my skull or in my neck! Bonus!

Today, thus far, the hearing in my Right-Good-Bad ear has not been too dang shabby. A dull listen, but a better hearing. Another bonus!

My left Deaf ear is picking up what sounds like a tank moving about in my back yard. I can hear it sure as lightening makes thunder. And no, I don't have a tank in my back yard. I sure as hell can hear it though...

...if I should start hearing it shoot it's projectiles, I will dial the 911. Ummm, BUT then, that might require a 911 on self. If you know what I mean. End up in some ward some-bloody-place. The 13th floor at Tampa General! What?

Maybe John Wayne, my pony and I will bust out of here in a spell. My baby daughter just got in from work and she wants to go to the Sam's Club. If invited - I'm outta here!

God Bless my daughter in the country of Arabians! God Bless All of my Relations around this globe named Earth Mother...and please my dear God, Bless our WOmen and Men out there placing their lives in danger every day for these United States of America...for all of North America...peace. Please come soon.