My dear Kindred, I was just laying down and trying to read about The Black Hills and our Lakota brothers and sisters. Then like an old needle on a record player/phonograph - I kept getting stuck on a paragraph or sentence or two and had to repeatedly go back to read and reread certain pieces of what was placed on the page. This's one of the pieces of rubbish that surfaces post vertigo attacks.
Speaking of which, today was a better and stronger day for I and I. I did have to take a sleep earlier in the day, but I sure damn do plan on keeping the faith that I'll get a good long run between now and the next attack. I didn't keep track of the sleep with this attack. I regret not doing so. Hell, this sleep has been been all consuming one, indeed. Time to kick it up with my pony John Wayne and I.
...today has made it ten days.
I suspect the beeping in my left ear had alot to do with me sitting here chatting with you at the moment. That and my perspiring in a room with a ceiling fan, a box fan and the air conditioner blowing cool breeze towards my safe place. The beeping thing has once again been pretty much a day long thing. Just in case this is the first time you have read any of Mario's Path, I welcome you and would like to share with you, I am Deaf in my left ear. Although, it is not an uncommon occurrence for me to "hear" stuff in my left ear. Only is it a rare thing for me to be Deaf to all and or any sound, originating from with-in a Deaf ear. My Deaf ear. My Dear.
I sometimes go blue when I think of how much I miss listening to music, nature, laughter and the voices of loved ones with two ears...I think it a piece of the process. My therapist, Sir Dude calls them audio hallucinations. He-Who-Touched-My-Brain, calls them an anomaly. I call them shit I hear in my Daef ear. What?
I have been nauseated today with productivity and once in my mouth. Hence, the perspiring. I have been dizzy off and on all day. Earlier, it was so bad I am certain I may have appeared intoxicated or having had a cocktail or two too many. My coodination and balance were tough on the ole fellow today...
...even with six legs - it was a tough one. Oh well, what can I do?
The worms have been very active this evening. One time I knocked on the coconut to see if that would help. I can't tell. The sensations of Earth Worms remain very much alive.
My Right-Good-Bad ear continue's to have day's when my hearing is way-way off. More of it today unfortunately. Earlier today I heard loud Vietnam era helecopters, "whomp-whomp-whomp" over my lodge and in my back yard. No, I did not check to have a look and see. I know. This is not an uncommon sound added to the many that play games with my psyche. Lord, the noises I could share with you all. But I really am not in the place to do so tonight. Some other time, please.
On a positive note I am painless in my neck and on the left side of my skull. Positive my foot! That makes me so happy!
Great Spirit, Thank You.
In the morrow my pony and I will fight the sleep and have what I pray will be very productive days. I feel the need to garden...
Thank You, Great Spirit!
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