Greetings,
From where I sit, I believe that it will soon be time to bring things in a bit closer, for My Path and I. Life has happened and there has been much activity in the past twenty work week days. I have managed my appointments well and might say that there were a few pop-ups that were out of my manage and control. A doctor randomly requesting your visit, is an example. This type of pop-up requires immediate attention and action on my behalf and takes priority over my being locked away in my dark and dank self made "Self Imposed Institutionalization of Self and Alters". And, as it is still, I should remain in medically imposed exile. Yes, this has really been one of the most active and hectic twenty days of life in months. In these twenty day's I attended eight different appointments that required me to coordinate the transport and communicate the urgency of making them on time. I am of the sort that despises being late for anything and I mean any-damned-thing.
I am blessed to be here with you, my Guest. I acknowledge I could be in my cave sleeping, but I really do wish to have a productive day today. Right at this moment, I feel that what I am doing is healthy and productive. So, I am here. Tapping away at about twenty words per minute. I laugh aloud because I once had 35 WPM while in the Army. Vroom to the future and I am doing a mad twenty words per minute! Yes, damn it, I laugh. Kindred, I thought I was better too. Ha!
The wound near the site of my BAHA (Bone Anchored Hearing Aid), has settled it's out-of-this-world, raging and madness inducing pain of yesterday. Today, it still hurts like a son-of-a-bitch, but that serves me a lot better than yesterday's "motherfuckrn" pain. Folks, I told He-Who-Touched-My-Brain's Assistant, `Vonn, just a few ago that if doctor had spoke with me yesterday I was liable to have cussed his ass out. I mean, I was in much misery. I suffered agony and I have lived to tell it too.
My lower left back has improved also. Today I am feeling more of a bruised feeling than that dreadful pain I had earlier in the week. Looking back, I know that I was near emergency department care and am so pleased to have fought that initial thought of, "Dude, do it!". I was able to provide heat therapy, self-massage, rest, and the medication's of ointments and pill. I have made much consideration to the spasm of my lower back being stress related. The morning of the Neuro Pain Botox Procedure was the beginning of a week long issue with a pained back. I am well.
I took good and proper care of my Rented Human Form. My Skin Shell is so brilliant and full of colour. It shimmers with much glitter and is so beautiful. I have also learned to love and adore my other Shell. That One that is dark as night, This is the shell that has a chip at the entry way that slows my return to it's familiarity's and dark eerie comfort. I howl at the moonless sky of a bright sunshiny day in Florida. What have I seen? What did they do?
My ears continue to play with my emotions. The right ear is roaring like at a sporting event roar. My Deaf Left is picking up some beep, beeps. Just like that to, beep, a pause then a beep-beep, and then another pause and repeat. Repeat and repeats that has gone on since getting up this morning. Yes, I laid there on my bed in my cool room, with my Cherokee blanket snuggled near, the wide open window facing North, and the cool crisp morning air welcomed into my lungs. My Spirit's were bathed in wonder of God's simple things that make Life Happening, such a happy thing. My Spirit's and I waited for my right ear to wake up. I've had to learn to let go, you see?
My nausea is a six, so I burp to make me think that burping helps the nausea. I carry a lump in my throat, but no vomit. The dizziness is at about a five at the moment. A light tipsy it feels like. The perspiration and misting's have been mild and off and on today. It pleases me to be able to share a peaceful calmness in my skin. This is a rare treat and I will enjoy this no doubt.
Shazam! I just told somebody who I will be meeting next week, for an important gathering that will provide me insight and direction, that I will be at her office with, "Bells On". Oh yes, I did...
...and then, now, from where I sit, I feel this diagnosis, Giddy. Damn it, I really did! Help.
I am the Last Unicorn. And, I found myself in another part of the world and I asked myself, how did I get here? Same as it ever was. Same as it ever was. As the days go by...
...love, peace, and more peace, all of me
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