My Ears Go Crazy

Greetings Folks,

Dropped by for a minute or few to share that both of my ears are driving me absolutely crazy. Crazy as a madman I said, totally uninvited Meniere's Disease related torment. I share that all of this insistent sound and noise, is troubling, especially when it comes from one Deaf Left Ear. Never music - not in my left ear hole, that's one more for these brains of mine to handle, process, and divide into sub-categories, and me being who I am, it is necessary to evaluate and analyze over and over three times maybe. Take inventory's. Dig?

My Good Goodness, please let me share the audio changes have been going on without cease. There has been musical flash backs, pop up out of the clear blue sky. So random. When they do I Pop Up and I like the tune, I'll purchase them from I-Tunes to figure out the message. Perhaps having not even heard these tunes in many years. Many off the air for years too. It seems as if my boyhood soundtrack is resurfacing, as if gone along on a long voyage. For goodness sake. sometimes it's cool to remember these tunes. Then there are the ones that strike the wrong chord. Them few dozen,  strike that strike my mind and heart like an arrow that made its way threw and threw. I have playing in my right good bad ear hole to the brain, listening to Larry Graham and Graham Central Station. Yes. "Are You Happy?" and "Is It Love?". Some old school music. I'm not too sure if even some of 'The Old Funksters", like me remember. Oh yes!! Something I've had exceptionally good times with lately have been the songs of my feathered cousins stopping by for breakfast and a drink. Here next to the preserve and channel I am able to listen to Sea Gulls and birds of the swamp. It is an orchestra early in the morning and again right just prior to dusk As a matter of fact, the Cardinal is the feathered cousin who is a late eater and stops by as the Sun sets, as darkness falls. Amazing these relatives of ours, their habits and ways and I am honored that we have them as neighbors. Cool cultures of the Birds.

The sounds in my Deaf Left Ear have been complex and have ranged from the beep-beep-beep of a UPS truck in reverse, so damned loudly it sounds as if it is in my large room. Truly, so loud and constant and consistent with the pace of the sounds of a UPS truck in revers it irrates me. Sounds like by Special Little Blue Bus too. There was one time I must admit that required a trip to the front doors - sounded so damned real and so loud it was, I speculated I had missed an appointment, and when I went to front door expecting a Little Blue Bus, there was none. Neither a UPS or Fed-Ex truck or a rubbish truck. Nothing, no one or any body was reversing a damned vehicle at my car port. My therapist still like to call them audio hallucinations. Hog shit! I am the Human One with these sounds, noises, and voices moving along between my ears. There's another sound originating from my Deaf Left Ear - it is a squadron of WW II Era Fighter planes that seem to get stuck in formation, and suspended animation. All engines in unison approaching my home from the North, North West, and never pass me by. When I am hit by the fighting planes, the visit will sometimes last for hours and hours more. No, I haven't created a journal for such, I stopped counting the Meniere's attacks years ago. It is without reason, I say because I can not think of a word for such. As far as the sounds and noises perhaps I might keep a little journal about these types of Meniere's Disease related symptoms.

Don't it all sound like an Old Country song en'it? "My Ears Go Crazy". I would sing by the camp fire, singing about missing how the world sounded with a set of able ears, I would sing how the blues damned near kilt me over the years since I lost hearing in this left ear of mine. Oh how I miss listening to everything with both ears - the natural stereo sound system gifted by Great Spirit. My Ears go crazy. I go crazy with the thoughts that it is my fault I let doctor cut out my ears innards...

...beeeeeeeeeeeeep, beep-beep-beeeeeeeeeeeeep, click-click, beeeeeeeeeeeeep, beep-beep-beeeeeeeeeeeeep, click-click, is what is happening in my right ear as I tip tap at this instant...

This pair of ears I reckon would drive any humane human mad. Some totally mad maybe. I mean, there is some sort of sound going on in my ears twenty-four hours per day.