Difficulty Breathing And Shortness Of Breath

I have had difficulty breathing intermittently over the past six days or so. No, I have not filed a report to my pulmonary expert or my internist about these tense events. Not yet. There has been so much going on in and with my life. So many processes, tests, and medications that have not even been conducted due to lack of Insurance and insufficient income at this time. I pray for my bride daily and I beg God to please bless my dear with good health and please cover her with a huge safety net to protect my precious Little Woman. By the way, I assure you that just tonight I have initiated breathing treatments for every four hours. I have the nebulizer, the fresh tubing, and old albuterol. I am compelled to continued at least until I am able to be seen by the pulmonologist or my right good Internist. Heavenly Father, how many times has my life been saved by the wonderful staff of an emergency department here in town? Doing their job, Helping Folks to breath for a good life and wonderful again. Being saved at the point of seemingly at the last breath, is just absolutely damned min blowing! I have been saved, time and time again.

This illness of the lungs now begin the process and of the fact, I have just begun stepping into and walking in a different pair shoes. Now, while I am having to take even more medicine? Times a rough. Is this because of everything? It's so tough. Really.

No, I don't want to see me taking yet more medicine. More and yet another new complete  patient kit of treatments and the pills, tablets, and capsules, oh my. The injections too, en'it?. On top of all other medicines, these fluids for breathing treatments are inhaled expired items. I need these breathing treatments here. Without them, I will be in hospital. The process of having a breathing treatment makes sense to me, so every four hours is exactly what is ordered for me in hospital. No dung. These my relations, are one therapeutic solution conducted here at home.

Last night, which was the seventh day of August, while eating our evening meal and chilling, just me and the wife, was when I began to be unable to breath properly and so unable to take in a deep full good breath. I was unable to breathe at ease, for roughly ten plus minutes, there was a bizarre battle to catch a breath. Those ten minutes, my friend, brought my very day to day life style to a complete halt. The whole I can't breath thing, with pains in my chest and lungs. Spitting up worms, and my head gets all loose and shit. For them few minutes, I did my damned best to not shed a tear, or let one know that I was in trouble of crossing over. But you see my friend, I have the desire and will to live. So natural.

When I am with the asthma in my lungs, this is when I am the closet to death. I've been here before and I have the same opinion with the symptoms of the pneumonia. Asthma, COPD, and all other sorts of pulmonary diseases and or issues. Some of these will take your last breaths from your sinus cavity. In my mind and Spirit's, loss of air is one of the most horrible processes of death. The terror to be suffocated by one's own lungs, heart, and chest. It's fucking amazing, these sequences of each and every falling domino, the effect is of succumbing to the pulmonary diseases. It's all just time. Engage self respect and esteem.

This is my life, and I tell you I have been near death by lose of air far to many times. Think. I am not going to put myself in the position to suffer in public. Whether patient, client, or customer. There's been too much creating a mighty stressful health and life event.

I realize that the time is not now. My God, teaches my mind when I am in unison with the directing of my mind, body, and health, covering me from head to toes. I do not have any more desires in going any further with certain interests in life, even question certain decisions with respect to our families. The need and desire to continue the fun and good fantastic times  with our large and wonderfully big family's.

Note To Self: Remember To Breath, Dude.