Relation's, 20 June 2013
Ten days of life has passed me by with such expediency, that my heart wants me to believe that it has been but a few over ten minutes of my life gone by and away. I have a need to apologize, but I am uncertain as to whether one is truly necessary, so then, I will state that I miss being here with you, my guest, and I feel such an ache in my heart from this withdrawal from so many who are involved with and in my day to day life. So, please, understand I do wish to share I am okay being here tip-tapping today and sharing this communique, which is my first post in ten days.
There is much to share and I really don't know where to start. Or where to begin to share what has been the scattering's about my path. So please, let me kick back, slip off these flop-flips from my feet and chat a spell. Seems to me as if it has been so too long and so much longer than ten days would indicate, and I consider that I should back this introduction to ten days ago, when and where a lot of what brought me to this point tonight started, so please, if you have a few minutes to kick back with me, I would love to share what I know has been some life altering moments that have changed me and my mind. These moments that have crossed my path and I have experienced over these ten days.
On 10 June 2013, I had an appointment with my newest team mate over at my Internists Clinic. It was at this appointment that a report's from x-ray's and an MRI I had done in late May were shared. The x-rays of my knees indicated that I have what a lot of folks have with the arthritis.
The MRI of I my lumbar spine reflected the back bones of a man who has worked hard all of his life. You know, the usual suspects, such as the likes of moderate to severe disc space narrowing, disc impinging (WTF), and the what-not's. This same MRI also picked up something else while taking images of my back side and spine. At the level of T12, just at the level of L1, there is a lesion attached to the very tip of my spinal cord. There's a whole bunch of medical terminology's and medical words I don't want to type just yet. The new doctor on my team, ordered more MRI's, so I had those done on Thursday, 13 June 13. I await further word from the clinic. Yes, I phoned.
On Tuesday of last week, the 11th day of June, my wife was released from her place of employ.
Wow. No, not so sunny here in Saint Petersburg or Tampa, Florida. I reckon this life happens when you least expect it. And by the way, a baseball team does not release a Yogi or Reggie, or Hank, or Bobby for having an error called against them. Teams who also choose to hand out slips to minorities and folks based on race are doomed in today's ever changing society. Sounds like it is time for a new coach and manager, not new team mates. Anyways, bless their hearts.
All of this sounds so damned ugly. Don't it?
My guests, I am a person who has been blessed to have lived, experienced, survived, and be alive to tell it. Kindred, I speak about a brethren who were not as fortunate - a people's who have been such a dear and loving part of my family, friends, and community. You see, I have known more people who have died of AIDS than I can remember, and I really am so sorry for this word association, but there is a lesion that has attached itself to my spine. It is invisible to me - I can not see this lesion, yet in my memory of the faces of my brother's with the lesion's I saw on their face, legs and skin, my thoughts know and remember what a lesion looks like. My God, my heart skipped a beat. To the many who live with lesions forgive me my ignorance.
Something I forgot to mention earlier was that some laboratories I had done in May, reflected that my sugar doubled in a matter of three or four months. No, I didn't have a sugar teet in my mouth for freaking months, but something occurred to have had such a substantial affect on my blood. For now this is a mystery to me, this new team mate informs me that this could have been caused by an infection I had on the left side of my scalp back in May. I suspect not having much patience for speculation on the behalf of this new mate. Neither on these labs and the lesion on the spinal cord, and really, I just don't want to listen to her impatient buffalo shit. This new team mate has let me down, she did not return my phone call earlier and this is the place where I, a patient asks, "Why hasn't somebody called me with the latest news?" type of thing.
A call will be made in the morrow. I promise.
There is more to chat and share about these past ten days. For now, I am exhausted and really do wish to retire for the evening. I shall return to speak of an electrifying experience I had while visiting with Kinfolk in Valdosta, Georgia.
Love, peace and more peace,
me
P.S. I'll be transferring all spine related issues to my Neurologist at Tampa General.
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