A Cigarette?

I want to smoke a cigarette,
but I don't smoke.
I would surly choke
as if by a garrote, this puff
and smoke of a cigarette.

I have learned that for some
folks like me, who can sometimes
not breath, from all the Asthma, and
the bronchitis's and all of
those damned pneumonia's.
The smoke means death for me.

And, I would so rather
breathe than smoke

Once upon a time,
I had to make a decision.
Was I to continue smoking?
As I did since twelve, or did
I want to breath? Smoke or
breath? Breath or smoke?

I want to smoke a cigarette,
but I don't smoke.
I would surly choke
as if by garrote, a puff
and smoke of a cigarette.

I have been in the emergency
department, on bended knee,
knocking on Heaven's Door,
dieing and trying to breath.
To fight to take, my Dear God,
one more breathe, please.

Once upon a time,
I had to make a decision.
Was I to continue smoking?
As I did since twelve, or did
I want to breath? Smoke or
breath? Breath or smoke?

Live or die? Die or live?
Smoke or breath? Breath
or smoke. Cigars, cigarette's.
Cigarette's, cigars?