Kindred,
Other than two appointments last week, one with Dr. Danner and the other with my therapist, Sir Dude, I have been in a deep state of Meniere's, vertigo attack sleep mode. I have been sleeping on average eighteen to twenty hours of sleep per day since the evening of Sunday 16 June. Thinking back to my week end in Valdosta, GA, I remember sleeping too much while there out on a brief holidays. Today is 24 June, and I am still deep within the grasp of not only the sleep, but also the gloom that has found its way back into my life's day to day. It was the evening of the 16th that I had the first of two attacks in one week and the third of the month, June.
My ambition tonight is to send out this communique to let my Relations know that I am okay. With all of the latest news of this and that's, in a very odd and surreal sort of way, I am okay, and in all actuality, tonight I am okay being okay. I'm just very sleepy. Sad too.
Knowing that there remains six or so days until end of month reminds me to be ever aware of my environment, though it seems with exception of a couple of days, I have been confined to home all month. As it has been ordered by the Meniere's Disease and it's symptoms and or consequences. Sleep, being a consequence. I think, you see, and sadly I still can not figure out why it is.
It is unfortunate news to share that my left eye has been sadly afflicted with some sort of laziness, certainly as a result of the Meniere's and it's attacks. It hurts me to look in the mirror and see the left eye being all gimp like and shit. It's like always half opened. Yes, really.
I am feeling uncomfortable and I am wanting to go back to my safe place for sleep. I am sweating, nauseated, dizzy and both ears are full of loud noise and sound. The right ear which can't hear so well these days is with the loud roar of a giant water fall. So loud and so obnoxious. I have had productive nausea and have thrown up in my mouth twice. Time for sleep. Sadly.
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