Met with Sir Dude, my therapist, on Wednesday afternoon and had quite the productive gathering. He was equiped and prepared for whatever might have come from my mouth and both hemisphere's of these brain's of mine. I enjoy therapy when Sir Dude, is on spot. Sometimes a little mental/verbal fenceing doesn't hurt any body. We did have therapy two consecutive weeks and am glad for it. Wednesday, was a visit made in error, but was so very needed. I am knowing this and was very pleased with it.
The beeping in my Deaf Left ear has subsided and has morphed into this dreadfully weary tip-tap-tip-tapping. Sounds as someone who has fair speed with the key board is tasking within my ear. Today, since I awoke this morning.
My Hard of Hearing right ear has a forest of crikets, cicadas, frogs, and alligators in full concert! I am listening to this now. This right ear being is in a contest with my left to see who might be the loudest and obnoxious distraction on today's Path...so fucking out loud. My right ear continues to pop and plop. Sometimes so loud it startles me. Sometimes so bad I have screamed aloud. What can I do?
The Worms have been active today - off and on.
The dizziness has me on high alert as I am feeling unsteady on my feet. The dizziness is hard and at up near a seven at this moment...
...nausea is same and has been engaged all morning and early afternoon. I had some juice and liters of water today. Some of this was brought up into my mouth and nose earlier. Yes, it's gross, but what to do? There is a knot of nausea in my throat at this very moment.
There have been many times latly where I have this intense desire to bleed. Honestly, if some relief is not in my near future, I will bleed some of this shit out. Irrational as hell, but it helps...
...for what it's worth.
I have a necklace and am wrapped about my chest with heavy perspiration and sweat. I am feeling it slide down my chest and stomach right at this second. About my neck a wear a bandana - EVERY DAY! It does not matter where I may go, there is a red or blue one neatly wrapped about my neck. I wear a t-shirt under my shirts to help absorb and assist me with keeping dry as possible when these elevators rise and fall. Oh yes, I also keep a spare bandana in my diddy bag to wipe my forehead and face. This is a must! I do believe in keeping up appearances, so I am constantly changing shirts. Sometimes pants and under garments as well.
There is NO SET SCHEDULE or RHYME OR REASON. I live with this daily and these are not post vertigo attack symptoms at the moment. These are the piece's of Meniere's Disease that are attached to me and do with me what it wants when it wants to. There is NO CONTROL!
I have an appointtment this afternoon with my primary physicican...She-Who-Is-A-Lovely-Doctor. The pains, aches and pecular numbness on the left side of my skull continues. The left eye orb still feels as if it bulges from time to time. Especially when I cough, and speaking of which still has not gone away. I still have some syrup and the pretty transparent pearls to eat, but will soon be empty. I feel terrible today. My body is sore and aches from my ankles to the side of my skull.
With great hopes - I will leave this visit with better fitting shoes.
No, Menier's Disease is not contagious.
I will have a ceremony later. In honor of my Relations.
peace and love,
Mario
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