This meniere's has had me by the throat. The nausea has been up and down. Have had the vomit come just up to the apple, just up there enough that I am able to taste it. Gag. Burp. Because I still believe burping helps settle the nausea. What do I know? I do this just because.
Have had the major sweats to the light mistings today. At the moment I am dry. I am thankful.
Dizziness has been a constant companion today. To some degree and at some level I have been dizzy from this morning until this very instant. Ensuring focus and a walk with purpose. The imbalance and coordination piece has been off by percentages and makes these measures absolutely neccessary.
My Left Deaf ear has enough disturbance going on that I am having issues reading and trying to rest tonight. There has been another form of beeping that has come about - it remains steadfast and centered. Not fluctuating or seemingly traveling about my skull. Just the beep-beep-beep of the Rubbish Truck's Driver reversing near my carport. I have also had sharp sudden pains in the inner Deaf Left ear.
My Hard of Hearing right ear is listening to a loud Band of Crickets...so loud are the crickets I am unable to hear any of the other critters that usually occupy the inner right ear. I have had moments of complete silence today and the noises of another realm come through loud and clear. Yes, the plopping continues. I have been experiancing pain in the right ear as well...
...these are things I will discuss with He-Who-Touched-My-Brain later this week. Wednesday the 12th October, morning of.
I am on another anti-sick medication as ordered by my primary and am still feeling ill, worn and pained. The infection in sinus has not gone away and the asthma has been stirred up really bad. The pains remain behind my left eye orb and along the left side of my skull to the back. Am on an inhaled steroid, emergency inhaler, nebulizer, cough syrup, the pretty transparent pearls, along with each and every other damned medication on my list of meds.
NOTE: There has been a new diagnosis applied to my name, that being COPD.
The anti-sad pill is not doing it's job as I have been crying at times to the point of sobs. Over just about the simplest of shit - I will cry. Over serious Life Stuff, I have lost control of emotions.
I have been instructed to arrange a visit with a Urologist due to issues down under...
...have also been instructed to arrange a visit with my Neurologist and my Pulmonary M.D...
...with all of this, it is no wonder I feel so damned unpretty.
I am exhausted from being ill. My mind is exhausted and my body is worn and exhausted.
Tonight, I say no more. With these noises - I will retire for the evening. I must. I simply must, due to the exhaustion and the pain and discomfort from the soles to my skull.
I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry. I am sorry.
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