Had a visit with my Dr. Neurology this afternoon. It was really rather like any other appointment with her. We discussed paths we've taken and medications tried and tasted, and honestly, this is the same song and dance as most every other visit. Perhaps, this is as far as we will get with this cervical spine situation with me for the now being. I don't know. I am having to trust my doctor with this direction to a degree...
...then, to some degree, I steer also. We spoke of the physical therapy, I reminded doctor we've done this physical therapy before - in clinic and at home, several times. She spoke of the anti-sad medication she ordered a long time ago - I reminded her I am on an anti-sad that's directed to the sad part of me by my psych doctor, not the cervical spine. Doctor spoke of a "Pain Management" doctor. I thanked her but declined the idea. For now anyways. I've been to one before and even though He-With-Many-Syringes is good, the whole pain management clinic thing and the patients scare me. Really. Honestly.
She recommended a non-narcotic stamp that I'll apply to my neck. I appreciate this direction and an order has been called into the pharamacy. She spoke of traction, so I have traction here in home and will increase the amount of tractions in a day. Doctor is considering an increase of mg for the anti-nerve-pain medication. I approve of this too because I am presently on same medication. Just would be an increase.
Oh, how I look forward to life without the worms on the side of my head and now on my face - the left cheek bone area that twitches every once and again...
...as if the bloody bastards multiplied and spread throughout the left side of my skull. The pain continues as it does - intermittentingly. Sometimes breath taking so severe, other wise a painful reminder there is stuff going on in the cervical spine that will go on as I go on. Life. When I can no longer accept the going's on as a healthy part of my day to day life, then the next step will be taken.
The Meniere's Disease, has been just plain obnoxious for the past several days. The dizziness has created a hyper state of awareness in my surroundings. The fall at hospital was due to dizziness and lack of coordination in my reaction to the loss of balance. Back not to long ago, my reactions were quick and sure. I am presently back on the strengthening of my upper body with the hopes of better reaction and muscle to land on when I do fall.
The nausea has been present daily and has been productive the past two. My throat was sore and my voice altered by the power of the nausea. The sweating has been present off and on along with the strength of the nausea and dizziness.
The hearing in my right ear has been lame as I have had days of hyper-loudness to day's of totally poor hearing. At this moment I am listening to a large number of large crikets. This ear contines to plop and pop.
My deaf left ear, today has been listening to the constant beep of someones alarm clock. A constant and steady beep-beep-beep-beep, with no button to push for a snooze or turn it off.
(The urge to vomit is so strong at this moment!)
As far as I, I am still healing from the infection in my lungs. I have managed to catch a cough and I be damned if both sides lungs and ribs ache and hurt when I do cough. I have taken my medications as directed...
...I don't know what more I can do.
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