Have a mixed bag of meniere's related issues this morning, plus a dash of cervical spine issues and the latest on yesterdays visit with the doctor who will take care of my under carriage, He-Who-Touched-My-Undercarriage.
The meniere's stuff/shit is acting a damned fool with my mind and body this morning. Seems to me it was waiting and on the ready the moment I stirred from a restless night of tossing, turning and getting by with very little actual rest and sleep. The symptoms and noises had my wheels turning while I did my best to at least rest this body and it's muscles...
...my Deaf Left Ear had what I heard as drums beating aloud and in some sort of message or code. Maybe a Nation resideing between my ears was sending a message to another hemisphere of the brain. I mean like, DAMN! And this was not a bang the drums slowly or softly. I wonder if I'll ever be totally at ease with silence in my Deaf Left. I sure cain't tell!
The jolly Right Hard of Hearing, had the sounds of the Amazon AND the Everglades competing for First Place in the Live Concert series. If there was some way I could physically provide a sample for you to take a listen, I would sure as shit do just that. The sad piece is that I LOVE these often peaceful and meditative sounds...
...just NEVER when the sounds come from within and not my stereo system.
My state of dizziness is fresh off a roller coaster type of dizzy that has just reached it's climax. Earlier it was a tipsy dizzy type. Rather like a bad damned hang over dizzy now that I think about it. Had to hold on to the vanity as I brushed my teeth to keep from tipping over or into the sink - which I have done before. By the way, I spoke with He-Who-Touched-My-Brains, assistant yesterday about the falls of recent. I have become hyper-vigilent in my persuit to not fall.
The nausea is at the top of the adams apple and I feel vomitting is eminent. If it was only so easy or to become true. The medication I have been prescribed might as well be a placibo or an empty capsule because I receive no benefit and am tired of playing the tic-tac-toe with all of these bleeding medications.
I am sweating so bad I feel it under my arms and sliding down my sides. At this damned moment. I also am wearing this matching baseball cap and necklace of perspiration and sweat. What a lovely mess. Hell yes, I know this is gross, but I live this grossness every day. What can I say? Or do?
Shit, I have grown ass Folks, trying to tell me what to do or what to eat or take with this meniere's disease. Think I much prefer the instructions from the doctor who sawed open this globe, He-Who-Touched-My-Brain.
How about one day off? Just one! And hell yes, I am just this side of a bit edgy this morning. What the Foik? Throw me bone already!
At this very moment my cervical spine is at ease and pain free. As in no issues. BONUS! Last night was the total opposite as I was in a constant state of dreadful pain. At some point during the evening I was moments close to going to emergency care.
Yesterday afternoon, I met a very polite and professional Male Urologist. His name will be, He-Who-Touched-My-Undercarriage. Why yes, he was very gentel with the touching of body parts and yes, he did in fact inspect my undercarriage. Come the morrow I shall meet with him again as there are some tests he has ordered. I have a scarey feeling deep in my gut that this checking under the hood is not going to be too much damned fun or comfortable, so please pardon me as I begin preparation today...
...as in wrapping this about and around this Granite Globe of mine. I like this doctor and plan on moving full speed ahead with all that he orders or recommends. The brother dropped the "C" word on me because of "my history" and my junk is all nervous and scared. Me too.
I think it is just about that time I contact Sir Dude for one of our gatherings. Too much time has passed us by since our last. True.
p.s. Am taking medications ordered by all of my physicians.
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