Today the 7th of June 2011, I am able to state aloud and put in print that the person I married, my Bride, has saved my life...has saved and rescued me time and time again...
...even though I've hurt her Heart or hurt her feelings as a WOman, time and time again, she was their with me - going through these changes with me...not against me as an adversary. But, as my Soul Mate. Even if I did things that were so immature and irresponsible that I had lowered myself esteem and self-worth to the level of the rubbish thrown out every Monday and Thursday. She would be there for me. When I hit rock bottom and had no self esteem, She gave me space to find out who the fuck I was. To become the person I am today. All of "Who I am today". No longer the reckless and restless one...
...how I would put my life in the palm's of death herself...time and time again. She was there to hold me. To hug me. To hold my hand and help me walk as a husband and father. For you see, I surly was a lost one. She knew this. So did I. There was no doubt. I did not learn what boundaries were until I was a thirty-something year old man/child. And in deep-deep therapy. Hard and gut wrenching truthful, opening up of The Soul and Spirit's Therapy. Yes, I am back in therapy today, but this was a pro-active step. No more heart games in this house. For sure.
Here "we" are now.......31 years of marriage and 37 years as sweet hearts. Yes, she is still my Sweet Heart. I love her with every cell of my body and with all the might within my Spirit's...
...it is for her I live today.
Thank you kindly, Ma'am, for saving my life. And I love you today as I have loved you since the day I met you. My dear, most beautiful wife, Brenda.
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