Figured since symptoms of meniere's have been stirred about, I would hit on it a while. Today, has been an uplifting day in that I have fought the sleep and I won. I ate breakfast and still had an excellent sugar @ 1430. Oh, the sugar piece...please.
The plop's continue in my right ear. Today has been a better day to hear...so it would have been a good day for audio test's. Sometimes, that's the way thing's go...by the way, the plops are extra loud on a good day.
My left deaf ear has a solo cricket in concert...softly playing her violin. No joke! I'm listening to the music of a cricket in a Deaf ear. My right ear has loud-ass cicada's raising hell! I mean, this is obnoxiously loud! Is it because I am having a good ear day that these bastards are just SO loud! These need to be sprayed damn it! Exterminated somehow...maybe have the tent placed around my head and upper torso...?
The nausea is a six and gaining , the dizziness a six point five and I have perspired an awful lot this afternoon. Nothing productive = no vomit.
Walking better with cane which seems to be an equalizer for me out of the clear blue sky. I think, to myself, what if I had been trained back then? Oh well...When it is necessary for me to walk while dizzy, there is more of a purpose to every step and I'm feeling a confidence building within.
Dear God, if we could keep meniere's out of this picture...my life. The child within see's this through my eye's, you see? Can't you all hear and see?! I am trying so fucking hard! I mean, I know this seems so dramatic, but damn! Take a day or two in my shoes! Life means so much to me...and I sure do miss being a part of our community and society. This is exile - this is not living with a life worth living! What value do I bring to my family?! I am disgraced by this fucking meniere's disease! Mom, can you hear me?! Dad, can you see me!? Doctors, won't you take a moment with me?
These worms are definitely parastic! This is not right you all! This goes against the grain with being Human. Humans don't walk about feeling foiken worms wiggling on the skull. Fuck! Come on DOCTORS!! Yes, am sure it's so damn funny to others or maybe amusing? But, this shit is torture! I don't give three passing's of shit whether these are misfiring nerves or WHAT? What if "just one" of these misfiring's goes that way instead of this way? What the hell then? I mean, really?
Think that pony is just about ready? Yep...me too. Real quick like!
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