...sometimes, I pretend to not hear the noises in my ear's...both the deaf one and the one-good-bad-ear that's hard of hearing, so Kinfolk don't think I've gone mad...
...sometimes, when the noises get so bad - I can't pretend...I know they're here to stay. There's not much I have not heard between my ears. From the loudest obnoxious ROARS, to the soaring silence I believe death sounds like when one dies in their sleep...
...sometimes, I pretend that I really didn't hear the voice just over my shoulder or over there in the corner...so I don't think I've gone mad...
We don't speak of this too often anymore. Sort of like out of ear - out of mind...for them...I see and hear it best I just keep silent, smile and pretend...
What do you want me to say?
The nausea is high. The dizziness is as well. The noises are loudly distracting me from thinking too cheerfully. I get so tired of living like this. So, sometimes I just pretend I'm not sad...
With all my sounds, noises and what-not, I head in this direction...
Just a note to let you know I was here checking on you. Sometimes I pretend too. I hope you feel better soon.
ReplyDeleteseems like I recall someone saying "fake it til you make it." hmmm where is that person? should we like to give him/her a thump upon the old noggin.
Thank you. True. Thank you - me too and hell yes, I would love to join you for this thump fest upon one's coco! Bleeding Mule...
ReplyDeleteKindred One, have had vertigo attacks twice since last Sunday. Have slept most of my life away the past six days...think I may have also taken a hic-up in my forward motion in dealing with this disease and the emotional/psych. strain it has created. I'll be posting a new post later this evening...thank you Ma'am.
ReplyDeleteMost of the time, and I did say most of the time, there is no one here for me to speak with. No shit...am surrounded by Relations, but nobody to talk to. This makes me sick. "nuff. peace...