Since this past Saturday, 18 January 2014, I have had a steady beeping that has lives and dwell within this Deaf left ear of mine. Please, don't ask. Doc., says I'm an anomaly. Yes, I knew that.
I know I am deaf with a left ear that provides sound and noise. This is the inner ear surgically altered, cut, removed, and the what-knot's done to it. Prior to that had injections with a dreadful form of anti-biotic injected straight into my ear drum that was to have offered resistance. Utter failure. This was a time in my life when there were many hospital stays and surgery's and operations in my life. The last one of a significance was when we re-did the site of my BAHA, Bone Anchored Hearing Aid Implant. There have been a few procedures, snips-n-cuts to this area. I have had BOTOX injections and others, directly into my face. But, goodness gracious, Meniere's Disease, has been such a handful for me, My Path and my life. My family, my sweet, sweet wife, Botswana, who has been my doctor, nurse, wife, and dearest of dearest friend.
No, I didn't see this coming all those few years ago. I mean, I had never heard of this damned Meniere's myself until I was smacked and slapped about my skull, ears, face and life with it. Everything was changed forever in my life in the matter of a year's time. Over the course of the past three or four I have lived a life that has been a life I would have altered if I had a chance to go back to the future and do that one simple what-ever-it-was so that I wouldn't get this madness of an invisible disease. Though today, I am One Ear, and I live.
There are times when I remember listening to certain voices with two ears. Oh, and those fantastic concerts I have attended all my life. Listening to music created by those I like to observe and enjoy in show. I remember listening to Great Spirit with two ears. I remember listening to my daughters voice with two ears. My Dear Botswana's. I reckon sometimes I have forgotten what it was like to listen to Beethoven's Ninth Symphony with both ears, but I bet with you this, if turned up just a bit over louder, something happens where I am able to hear this with my hard of hearing right ear and feel the symphony in my veins and bones. Oh, wow.
Oh yes, getting back to the beep's. As mentioned, since 18 Jan., I have listened day and night to a steady beeping that goes like this, beep. Beep. Beep, tsk-tsk, wait a second or few, then beep. Beep. Beep, tsk-tsk. Sometimes loud, sometimes not so loud. Yet. It's here at this very instant.
A Deaf ear?! One Ear's ear.
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