The time has come for me to acknowledge that for well over half of one year, I have permitted boundaries to be trespassed, I have openly permitted negative grown folks let be with their sad state of immaturity in spite of being grown adults, who are of a small few in my circle. Let influences, words, betrayal's affect me and mine. I have let this from others influence my energy. Sadly, my Path too. I have let their word's and their idea's, their point's of view and their boastful banter of their supposed awesomely blessed energy's, knowledge and skill's, and how it is, talk, talk to impress folks when no one is truly really trying not to listen anymore.
Thing's change, I've changed, some Folk's have changed, and now, it's time that we affect a change of many things. I say we because if we don't, I will. It's all so silly simple. Seen?
Reader's, so too many of these silly minded ones play their games. I mean to share that I speak of Kin Folk, a couple of Health care professionals. Kin Folk, I say, as if another round of remove from the traitors and two faced ones. Them who try to toy with emotions and people's way's. As if interference by ego radar waves is your greatest assets. To them, who have been in my circle, now, it is I who feels a sadness because of your sad pitiful ways. That's not how shits supposed to happen, Honey. En'it? You and yours who depend on egomania and your manic stages of lies and cheating folks of time and energy with full fledged bull shit. My time and energy is from now on to be focused on the business of me and a better state of health. My Bride's health, and God, there's so much going on. It has been since March 2013 I let loose of maybe too much. How is somebody going to tell a grown man not to speak in such a way. Wow, I say and well, it's time to bring change and it is time to focus inwards. Study my innards and work with the doctors, professors and Folk. More Botox coming up and a surgery is pending. Fuck. I've had enough.
Fuck. By the way, don't apologize. There isn't none necessary, I say certainly. Please chock this up as a 'Life Lesson'. One we both have learned from. And I have been reminded about my boundaries and have learned not to listen to them who pass along such ill bitterness. I pray. My dear friends and family, please grasp hold of this, take your life by your glands and do something with YOU LIFE. Don't make believe and play this roll of caring so damned much. Bitch please. You spend too much time having your mind on others and their shit, while not minding your own damned business. I admit, you are all skilled and what you do is skillful, but friend, you shade your purposes with agenda's while perpetuating child's play. With grown ass people who depend on you for compassion, understanding, and an occasional hug or visit. It is time now to move along, you and your negative energy's, your habit of leaching like a leach to my mixed blood. No mas. No more. That's it. Yeah, it's best to go ahead and move along. For shits sake, number fifty four just eased on by a minute ago and to tell the truth, my biological watch says it's time for change. Time to take back my energy and focus, cut the shit and move along.
To my family and friends, I'm taking a hold of my glands and I'm going to rock my life. It's time. Oh yes, I ask my dear drama makers, boasters, and them with two faces and two mouths. "lower your voice, lesson your ego and more will listen". I assure you of this.
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